Forgetting I ever loved a Full-Buster

What the F*** Just Happened pt2 (edited)

"Why do you hate me juvia?"

Juvia pov

"I don't hate you Gray"

"Sama" he interrupt

"what?" I ask. Gray looks perplex and repeats 'I don't hate you Gray sama' "continue on" he orders. I smirk and roll my eyes. "I don't hate you Gray I just don't love you anymore the way did before." I confess.

Grays face is harden and his eyes show hundreds of emotions but he starts to walk closer to where I'm standing and glaring at me. I don't back down although my heart is pounding a million miles per second. 

I take this chance t get it all out and confess everything I need to to before he reaches me. I want to be clear. "I don't mean to make you think I hate you Gray. Its just too painful to persue you. I read somewhere a man choses His wife. Not the other way around. It shows their leadership, responsibility, and commitment. I feel like I've pushed myself in your life. I know I have. Gray you've committed nothing to me over these 10 years. I can't wait forever. I want a husband and family too.

I've given whatever this is so much of me and my time and i don't know that if I had to do it again that I would. I'm clingy and easily excited and a lot of other things that I think you hate." I begin to get angry with him. " who I am is Me but I'd rather show you the loving side but all this time it hasn't been good enough to win you over. So if you don't like me or love me why are you here Gray sssaa... Gray ?" My nerves show.

He looks pissed as he comes chest to chest with me. But again I'm not backing down. I'm stronger and focused.  He can't move me.... I hope.

"If that's how you feel why did you f*** me last night? Why did you open yourself to me like that if you just wanted to leave me?" He seethe. He grabs my waist and pushes me toward him waiting for my answer.

'DON'T BACK DOWN!!!' I tell myself.

"Last night wasn't a mistake or invitation. It was a goodbye Gray sama" crap I'm nervous!! He squeezes my hips more toward him. And I make a squeak not expecting that to happen. He makes me blush and wet. Jerk!!!

"Gray I don't want you! And you don't want me! So lets just leave it at that before we really start to make mistakes."

I try to move further into the water but he has me like a vice. Probing me with his dark blue and brown eyes. My heart jumps ever so slightly but I ignore it. I look away. I don't want him to see that I still have a small hope for us. I want us to move on and break this cycle.

"Gray please let me go" I say. He pushes me closer. "Gray sama please let me go." He grabs my butt and palms it. Squeezing and mushing my body.

I look up to him with a blush and tight lips to hold my moan in. I'm not going to cave although His hands feel good on me. That look from last night is there too.

I really have been trying to get away from him. Thrashing in his arms. Despite my raging emotions, battling inside me, telling me to stop fighting. I make one final attempt and use all my strength again. I push my butt into his hands to get free but still he grabs me. "Gray!!" I yell. " 3rd strike Juvia" he says.

I'm starting to get pissed off and I'm confused but then I notice his devil marks covering the open parts of his body. He's angry. "What are you doing Gray sama!?" I say also getting mad.

He picks me up making my legs go around him and leads me to the grass and lays me there. Im too confused to make a decision what to do. Should I kick him in the balls and make a run for it? I don't have a clue what is happening. He pins me down on the ground and starts kissing me. I want to cry because he's playing with my feelings again. But I won't cry for this Buster ever again.