Forgetting I ever loved a Full-Buster

The Truth Always Hurts

Gray pov

She woke up! She's not dead. But I feel the disconnect. She isn't Juvia!!!! She is dead...... even though she's right in front of me. My heart wants to believe this is all a bad dream and that we can be back at the guild with everyone. That she can bake me something sweet that i can pretend i dont love and secretly hate natsu for eating in front of me but my mind know that this is real. The connection I have with her is...... gone. Like flatlined.... She's dead! She isn't MY Juvia dammit!!!!

It was all a trap to get her here. To get me here and we walked right in on a silver platter. How could I be so stupid. But what could I do?? She was dying right in front of everyone. We had to do something!!!!

The anger I feel is out of this world!!!! The despair and hatred is overwhelming!!!! Its in my every sense. My devil is tipping from being OC and just being calm. He's feeding off my feelings and All I can think about is vengeance for my lost friend, family, love, and mate. She is my mate. I can see how stupid I was for thinking I could ignore it. When the devil in me craves her every second of the day. Which is why I was always in a agitated mood. Especially when she came around me. I see how dumb this sounds now. Now!!!!! When its too late. I haven't had her enough. Breathed with her enough. I would give anything to be with her. I want my mate!!!! I want My fcuking Juvia!!!!!Why does $hit like this always happen!!!!! Even to the kindest and purest souls????  why does darkness lurk in the depths waiting to consume them???? Waiting to consume us??? Tears threaten to fall as I stare at the woman masquerading as my beloved.

She stares at me and smirks knowingly.

Gray you don't like the new me? She pouts. How unfortunate. She rasps. Her voice is lower. More sultry and sexy but..... I-its not Juvia's. Its Astrids. I want to break down and cry.  After days of not hearing her bubbly voice I really really miss it.

I glare at Astrid and her smirks becomes more profound on the my loves face. She walks towards me "Gray," she calls and without warning it all hits me. The tears I've tried to hold back once again cascade down my face. My heart sinks and it feels like its about to explode out of my chest but also like  its being stabbed continuously. The pain...... It is...... It reminds me of losing my parents and Ur. I sob. "Juvia, I'm sorry" I whisper.

  Her smile never leaves her lips as she comes towards me and places her hand on my cheek.  "somnum mea" and everything goes white. The pain stops and  I can't move. I can't breath. I feel like the wind is knocked out of me. Did she kill me? Am I dead?

................ Why can't I see........ Where am I????

"No your not dead." Says a voice I've never heard before. "You're in the subspace in your mind. Like in a coma but your devil is in control." The masculine voice says to me.

"Fcuk me!!!!! He's nuts. He can't be in control.... Fcuk." I yell. "And who are you then?? Why are you in my mind???"

There's silence for a few minutes......

"Who I am isn't important but what I'm here for is. I'm here to help you save Juvia."