Forgetting I ever loved a Full-Buster

We can't always get what we want

Juvia Pov

For the past few days Gray has been coming to my house to cook for me and talk. He's been walking me to and from the guild. We had a movie night and he brought chocolate mint ice cream. That's my favorite. How'd he know. Every time I go shopping he grabs the bags. Yesterday I tripped because I wasn't paying attention and skid my knee and my toe and he nearly freaked out!!!!  Like I was dying or something but I must say that was one of the greatest foot massages I've ever had. Way better than Gajeels. I shudder from the thought.

I'm currently at the guild talking to the girls about the mission when Lucy says "so how's it been going since you've let go of Gray?" '$hit' I say in my head.  "well I must be going to cook dinner" I start to stand but erza and Mira start to reequip and change into demons. '$hit $hit' I think again and sit back down so I don't die. My face feels hotter than Natsus fire. Levy and Lucy just laugh at my reaction.

"Well, he's definitely shown me that people can change in the course of 50 hours. I'm overwhelmed but not turned off by it. It just sucks because now my mind is damaged goods and its hard to forget and forgive the past you know. I keep thinking he'll revert back to cold, heartless, careless, mean Gray sama any minute. It's a little scary and I really want to go on this mission to clear my thoughts of it all. He got me a bracelet a few days ago and I have it (I take it everywhere I neglect to say) but I don't wear it yet. I keep with me its like a good luck charm. I'm just scared." I confess 

Normal pov

"You sound conflicted Juvia." Mira says
"Yeah" erza chimes in "sounds you need  to make a decision about him again. I mean he's showing you all the right  things now. Why don't you want to accept it when you've been wishing for this all this time?"
"Because that train has gone! He is too late!! Once the train  has left the station he cant ride it anymore."
"Good thing you arent a train" Levy chimes in while Lucy nods. I give them both an aggreviated look. "Plus I give him a little "blueberry pie" one night and the next day he's in love with me??? Are you serious?"

I'm upset. That's totally contradictory to what Gray tried to ensure me of the day he found me by the lake and....."confessed" in more ways than one. They look at me and Mira says "by blueberry pie you mean......"  Crap I said to much. I blush in response. 

"EEEHHH!!!!! Lucy, Mira, Erza and Levy say.  The guild stops and stares at our table. The girls get up bug eyed and grab me by my limbs and rush out of the guild to the old cherry blossom tree that Natsu confessed to Lucy at leaving a cloud of dust in tow. I didn't know the guild was soo dusty.

When they finally set me down they yell in unison "Tell us everything !!!" "Every detail "Levy says "and don't leave anything out or so help you Juvia" erza threatens. I shudder at that the thought of these four mages.
I tell them about the day I decided enough was enough. What happened when he came over in great detail. I'm embarrassed but not as much as them except Mira. 'Pay back for the rest of them tho. I tell them about the next day and him finding me confessing the other thing and giving me the bracelet. Which I show them.

By the end Mira keeps talking about gruvia babies with hearts in her eyes. Lucy has a smug smirk on her face. Erza and Levy are wide eyed thinking on what to say. Mira snaps out of her trance and point out she knew something was up that day. "Well Laxus and I are coming so we'll help in every way we can with everything."

"Hmmmm so is Gray a good lover? Erza asks seriously and curious. "Excellent lover" I confess. "I do want him still..... even though I'm having a hard time not wanting to make him suffer for how he was or still is??? Maybe. I know that is terrible but I'm working through it. He is showing me all the right things but part of me doesnt think he's genuine. Idk guys. I'm just terrified." I say while they look at me sympathetically.

"How does he feel about the mission? I mean its pretty long. " Lucy asks
"Idk he makes me feel a little suspicious because hes soo calm but still I don't know." They all have a look that says they know something i dont. I narrow my eyes at them about to lash out when I hear Grays voice cut in. Smooth like silk. He looks amazing. I just stare surprised.

Gray pov
I've been hearing everything all day. Juvia doesn't know that the girls are my support team. I'm totally being a sappy boyfriend. Or should I say suitor because we're not official. But I'd kill anybody who wants to be her boyfriend. Especially Lyon!!!! I think.......

Damn demon me. I sigh. It's not the worse thing ive ever done. Showing juvia that I care.  I mean, i mean what I'm doing so although it can be difficult on my pride I don't hate being there for her.

"Hey ladies" I say as I come to the tree with white and blue tulips and a picnic basket. I came up with this date actually.  I'm totally spying on her now. I'm a stripper and a stalker. I inwardly sigh.

Erza and Lucy have transmitors on them. Juvia stares surprised and shocked to see me. She makes a familiar face like when I'd come into the guild after a mission and she'd stare and run to me or like when she goes into a random day dreams about us. I smile a full smile at juvia. She turns pinker like Natsu hair. 'Mavis, I love her.' Her eyes water a little but she turns away as the girls are getting up to head back to the guild.

"I for one think everything will work out for the better Juvia just do your best to be the woman you'd want to marry if you could." Levy says before they walk back in a group. They all gave me an intense stare. Basically saying 'don't fcuk up idiot.' I sigh. Juvia is still looking down.

"These are for you." She looks up with water still in her eyes but her jaw is set. She's holding back. She wants to cry. 'How did Gray sama know Juvia was here Gray sama?' My heart jumps a little at that. I make note of the times she says it .... when she's nervous more particularly now. Not every encounter we have. "Just kind of knew. Do you want to have lunch and watch the sun set with me?" 'ok' she says.

I made a bento with the help of the girls. 'Umm Gray I'm leaving for the mission tmrw. Ill be gone a long time as its 6-12 months. Will you be okay?'
I gulp down my food and say "not really. it could be dangerous and you didn't invite me on it so I'm very scared and anxious about you being away from me. Or the possibility of losing you. Even though I know you can take care of yourself." I look at her with blazing cheeks. 'gray sama why now when I need to get over you?'

"You don't need to get over me juvia you need to forgive me. You want to get over me but I can't allow it Because I need and want you in my life forever." 'We don't always get what we want, when we want Gray' she says more confidently than before with a frown. "you're surely right because if we did we'd be making out by now." She blushes, cracks a smile and laughs. Its contagious and I laugh too.
I'm scared that you'll hurt me again Gray.' She admits as if I didn't know. "I know and I'm sorry." I say as I stare seriously in her blue eyes and she stares back. "But I'll never intentionally hurt you again. I can't handle seeing you in pain by me or anyone or even yourself. Please believe me when I say your happiness and feelings are top priorities to me now. If that doesnt tell me that I'm head over heels for you I'm dumber than Natsu." I say. We look at the sun and stay quiet. Not awkward quiet like before but natural and pleasant. She scooted close to me to lean on me. When the sun finally went down and the full moon came out we got up walked to the guild and stayed for a while. Then she begin to make her way to fairy hills with me behind her to keep her safe.

"Thanks for having lunch with me and stuff today" I say when we're at the apartment door. Although boys aren't allowed erza and laki arent here so score for me. 'No thank you. The bento was very good.' She says. "Well ill see you at the train station tomorrow" I want a kiss but I suppose I have to earn them. I turn to leave and juvia grabs my hand. She's blushed and says 'Gray sama' the cutest way ive ever heard. And with that I cant hold back and I push her against the wall and we make out.

I grab her round bottom and lift her to me and she wraps her long and soft legs around my waist. I feel myself get hard under her as she lets out soft moans and grinds on me taking me deeper. I want to go deeper too. I cant get enough of Juvia. We allow passion to consume us but not rule us this time. I place her back down and once again we say our good nights. And she said we don't always get what we want. I smirk leaving fairy hills unaware that tmrw is going to be the worse day of my life.

Whaaa what's going to happen just wait and see. Minna