Me and Charlie announced to the fans that we were "no longer a couple" yesterday. It really hurt to lie to the fans then get support for it even though we are still together.
I was scrolling through the comments on our latest post on Instagram announcing "the break up"
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Caption: Hey guy's. Due to recent private issues that we have been having, Me and Leo have decided to end our relationship. We are still best friends and he will always be like a little bro to me. This happened a few weeks ago and now we feel the need to tell you as we have sorted our differences out. Thanks for the support guy's x- Charlie
A tear slid down my cheek as I read the caption over and over.
Why us?
Why is life so hard?
Suddenly my wrists began to itch.
No. Charlie will hate me.!
How can he hate you if he doesn't know?
I'm not doing this again!
Cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut.
I had the same conversation in my head last night.
A second later I seem to have lost control over myself. I get up and go to the bathroom to get my razor.
No!
Yes.
I can't!
You can.
What about Charlie?
He won't know.
He will find out.
Not if you don't let him.
I couldn't help myself. I pressed the blade into my skin and dragged it across causing blood to stream out of my wrist.
"Babe?" A familiar voice said from behind me.
Shit.
I froze not knowing what to do.
I turned around and threw my self into his arms and he hugged me back.
"I'm s-sorry" I sobbed into his chest.
"For what?" He asked completely clueless.
I got out of his embrace and showed him the deep cut on my wrist.
"Let me get you a plaster and we can talk after." Charlie said emotionless.
"Okay." I muttered in response.
He cleaned the blood from my arm and put a plaster over the cut.
We sat down on the couch.
"Why?" Charlie blurted out.
"I d-don't know. I guess I lost control." I replied .
"What do you mean?" He asked curiously .
"I was just sitting on the bed on my phone and the next thing I know, I'm in the bathroom holding my razor to my wrist." I explained.
"What were you doing on your phone? Be honest." He said.
" I-i was looking at the post from yesterday and the comments. " I said in response.
"That's what made you do it." He thought out loud.
"Do you hate me?" I asked looking down at my lap.
"No baby I could never hate you, ever." He replied lovingly.
He pulled me onto his lap and I lay my head on his chest.
"Leo, I did it too." Charlie muttered.
"Why?" I questioned.
"I couldn't stop myself. I needed a release." He said tearing up.
"Charlie, I love you." I said .
"I love you too, Leo." He replied.
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Hey guy's. Sorry that I haven't updated in 3 days but I have end of year exams coming up and I have actually been revising for once.
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