And Then There Were Three (Kehlauremi)

I Feel So Alone

Demi's POV

I thought sex would take this pain away, but nothing could. It makes me physically ill to think that Wilmer's baby is growing inside of me. I wanted nothing more than to abort the baby although it went against my Christian faith. These circumstances in which a baby should be born.

I woke up in Lauren's arms and she didn't wake up all the while I got up to make coffee and came back with a mug.

"Good morning." I whispered in her ear and then blew on her cheek a little. She flinched slightly as her big eyes opened.

"Good morning, babe." She moved up slowly to kiss me.

"I want to get an abortion today." She pulled back from me and raised her eyebrows as I informed her. Maybe she didn't expect me to say it this fast.

"Don't make a rash decision. A sperm donor and insemination would be a long and expensive process. Kehlani wants a baby with us."

"Hah! That's funny. Kehlani's not the one carrying the baby. So I don't think I should keep it just because of her."

"I'm not saying that either-"

"I don't care what you say! Nothing you say or do can make me change my mind." I put on Fabletics leggings and a YSL t shirt to go to the doctors. I grabbed my keys and Lauren grabbed my hand.

"Let me go with you." Lauren pleaded with her fingers wrapped around my fist. I dropped my hand.

"Okay" I responded.

The doctor confirmed I was pregnant, but the baby was hard to find in the ultrasound. Dr. Smith said it was an ectopic pregnancy, which meant the fetus was outside of my uterus and probably wouldn't survive. I didn't care. I scheduled an abortion anyways. I never even told Kehlani, but maybe Lauren did. The ride home was awkward between Lauren and I. She supported me in my decision, but was feeling some kind of way. I felt set up and trapped when Kehlani was in my foyer.

"Hey babe." Kehlani said and kissed me.

"What are you doing here?"I asked. I wanted to be under the covers and sleep all day.

"I'm your girlfriend. Like what's the big deal?"

"I just wanna be alone now so I'm going to bed."

Kittens exclaimed, "It's only 2pm."

"I don't care." I yelled back as I stomped up the stairs. I've had it. I don't even wanna see my girlfriends now. I wanted to scream. I felt like crying. I felt so alone.