my fxxkboy | jaeyong

Chapter 30: Don't leave

"I'll just buy food for us here." I told him and went to my bag.

I was about to go to the door when I felt his hand held my shirt. Fuck, he's so cute. I looked at him smilingly.

"Hmm? Is there something you want?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"Then why?" I asked him and pulled his hand out of my shirt.

"Don't ajsjsksk." He said in a whisper. I can't understand it.

"What? I can't understand." I asked him again.

"Don't leave." He shyly said while looking down.

"Then, how will we supposed to eat?" I asked him. He reached out for my shirt again ang pulled me.

He went to the phone and started the dialling. I snatched from him the phone and hanged up.

"You've been eating fast food for months, Jae. I can't let you eat that again." I scolded him. He bit his lower lip.

I went closer to him and removed my white shirt from him. He was surprised but he said nothing.

I went to the closet and fetched him some new shirt.

"Just come with me, if you're scared that I'll leave you again." I told him and held his hand.

I saw in my peripheral vision that he smiled at me. My heart. Oh my heart, Jae. They still get excited for you.

We walked to supermarket near his condo unit. I can't let him drive because he still smells like alcohol.

We pulled a cart and went to the vegetables section. I pulled him in the middle of the cart and trapped him inside while I control the cart. I rested my chin on his shoulders.

"Get some cabbage, celery, carrots, potatoes, tomatoes, onion, garlic..." I ordered him but he looked at me confusingly.

"Just get it yourself." He ordered me and I laughed at him. I just want to cling to him while we buy food.

I went to the vegetables and get what we need. I suddenly felt Jae's hand on my shirt again.

"Jae... I have hands..." I told them and I removed his hand on my shirt and held it. I saw how his ears turned red.

I kissed him quickly on his cheeks and focused on buying. This guy is really good at distracting me. Aisht.

After buying vegetables, meat, beef, fishes, condiments and some snacks. We went to the cashier and paid for it.

"I didn't bring my black card." He whispere to me. I smiled at him brightly and messed his hair a bit.

"This is on me." I told him and gave my credit card.

"I worked part time jobs in Japan to distract myself and earned so much to buy us a house and travel with you." I told him and he looked away. Ahh. He's so adorable.

After paying, we carried the groceries and went to his unit.

When we arrived inside, we put it in the right places and I started preparing the ingredients I'm going to use.

I'm going to make him samgyupsal, fried  rice, and some side dishes. He waited at the dining table and watched me cook. I sometimes wink at him but he'll just look away.

After cooking, I served him the food I made. I made a lot. I want him to eat more because we both got skinny so much.

"Thank you for the meal." He said and started digging his food.

"Do I still have a chance on winning you back?" I asked him and he looked at me.

He looked down and nodded. I smiled at his answer. When his mouth was empty, I went closer to him and raised his chin.

"I miss you so much." I whispered to his face and started nibbling his lips.

I went closer to him and I sat on his lap. I grinded my buddy to his. Damn. I miss him.

He entwine his hands on my waist but he pushed me and seperated from the kiss.

"I still... I can't... I'm sorry... Let's just eat..." He said so I stood up. I smiled at him.

"Okay. Take your time." I told him so I went back to my seat.

This is breaking me. He rejected my kiss but I should unserstand it because I'm did something wrong. I can't stop my tears anymore.

"Excuse me." I told him without looking at him.

I went to the bathroom and started washing my face but it won't wash away my tears. It keeps on falling as the things we did in this bathroom started to flashback.

I miss him. I miss us. I fucking miss us and this is my fault.

I was surprised when Jaehyun entered the bathroom. I immediately washed my face and smiled at him.

"Are you going to pee too?" I asked him while smiling and hoping he won't notice my tears.

But instead of answering me, he hugged me. I started to cry louder. I hugged him back and hugged him tight.

"I'm sorry." He said that made me cry so much.

"I still can't stop thinking about you and Jungwoo. I still think you like his kisses better than mine. I still think that he's more a good kisser than me." He cried. I caressed his back and kissed his forehead.

"No... you're the best thing in the whole world. I will always crave, and look for your kisses... I will always want yor kisses... I will alway choose you over everything..." I comforted him. They're all true. They're all sincere.

"I can understand why you can't trust me immediately... but I hope you'll open your heart to me again." I told him. I kissed him on his forehead and seperated from the hug but he pulled me back and he rested on my chest.

"Let's just stay like this..." He pleaded. I silently cried. I miss him so bad.

I hugged him back and caressed his hair. I smelled it and it smells like alcohol. This guy, aisht.

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked him. He nodded at my chest.

"Why did you dropped out from school?"

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So i decided to make it longer :))) hehehe. Maybe another five chapters? :) because there will be two special chapters!!! ^_^

Thank you for reading!

--Aree