The Way We Speak Through Music

Chapter 18

"Why are you eating, fatty?"

But... I'm hungry and Jin made this for me

"So? Why don't you weigh yourself?"

What do you want from me? I had no food for two days, it's not healthy

"Well you had enough stock to survive"

Fine... I guess I'm done with my meal then

"You're already done?", Yoongi asked surprised and put his chopsticks aside

"Y-yeah"

"Huh, I thought you love teriyaki chicken", oh god I love it so much

"No, it's fine"

"Stop making him worry so much, you're not worth it"

True, I'm really just a burden

"Y/N, you look down", I looked up at him when his hand reached mine

"I'm sorry, please don't mind me"

"Good, now leave"

I wanted to leave him alone, but my curiosity made me stay and ask a few things

"Yoongi, what happened with my parents?"

"They're in jail, where they belong anyway"

"What about Jin? Why won't he answer my calls?"

"He's busy fixing the mess your parents left behind"

"And why am I here?"

"Because", his voice got stricter. He walked up to me and made me stand up, firmly holding my wrists

"I know you're safe here"

"See? He doesn't want you here, he is just super kind to a weakling like you"

I wanted to watch his eyes some more but turned away

"You're doing great, now GO. LEAVE HIM"

"But I don't want to"

"Huh?", I realized I said that out loud and quickly looked back at shocked Yoongi

"You don't want to stay with me?"

"N-no, I never said that"

"Y/N, you're making no sense. Can you just tell me what's wrong?"

"I told you to leave... why are you so hard to deal with? Look how you're pissing him off, is that what you want?"

No, I don't want that

But

I also don't want you ordering me around

"Yeah sure, like you could ever get rid of me. I'm a part of you"

This sound... it's First Love. Wow, what a pure melody. I found myself standing in the middle of a field with nothing but cherry blossom trees around me. The wind blew and I saw petals flying around, I reach out my hand to catch one and examine it proudly. So beautiful... the song fits this so perfectly. It's like a fantasy

"Enjoy while you can, it won't last long", again that voice. This time it didn't seem like it's in my head so I turned around to see... me

"Why wouldn't it?"

"When was the last time life let you have something you love?"

"I still have Jin and Yoongi with me", the other me shifted shape, looking more demonic and laughing in such manner. The trees turned black and I couldn't hear the song anymore