In the closet (MJ fanfiction) ON HOLD

Chapter 8 - Complicated

I know the thought should have crossed my mind already, but I really thought we used protection. We always do. Or, I take the pills so we normally don't use a condom. I must have forgotten lately. I've been so stressed.. I look down at the pregnanty test. It has to be negative. Not that I don't want kids. I do, but not like this. I can't have a child with another one than my boyfriend. Mike and I are too complicated anyway. And better yet, we are just friends.
I thought I might had a crush on him or something, but I've realised that I don't. Love is complicated stuff I must say.
So, If I am pregnant, Tom will hate me because he will know it isn't his. We have not slept together in forever so it is impossible if he have made me pregnant through a kiss..

I shake my head. Oh, the test is ready. I look down at it, completely shocked.. Positive. I scream loudly out of anger, as i throw the test hard and it hits the wall. It falls down and break into pieces. This is a complete mess.
What to do now?
Should I tell Mike?
Should I tell Tom? No.. Absoultely not that.
And Carrie, i could tell her. I just hope she wont judge me..

I am sitting in Carrie's bed. I called her and asked to come over, and here I am. "So, spill it" she commands as she sits down besides me and hand me a cup of hot chocolate. She has one as well. I take a sip, and it burns on my tongue. Auch, I always do it. I put the cup on the nightstand besides her bed.
I sigh.
"I know you've been hiding something, I can see it in your eyes" she says before I even get to begin to explain what it is. Her whole face is completely serious. "You know Mike?"
She nodds. "Well, ever since we were around 19 or so, we've been having sex and..."
"Holy shit, are you serious?" She interrupts me, again. I can tell she is shocked, but I can see her face lighten up a bit.
"Yeah.."
"Well, I kinda knew that you are in love with him so.." She smiles.
"Wow wow, slow down sister, I NEVER said that" I raise my voice a bit.
"I just thought" she says defendingly.
I put my face in my hands and bend down to rest on my knees. "Im sorry" i mumble, hoping she can hear it.
She strokes me on my back. "It is fine, but is that what this is all about?" I forgot, I haven't told her yet.

I get up again and look at her. She removes her hand, looking worried. "Nah, there's more"
"I-I am pregnant"
She almost jumps out of her bed. She puts away her hot chocolate before she will spill everything. "Woah, what about Tom?"
"I don't know! I can't tell him, I am so scared and I have no idea about anything!"
"Eh well, you could I don't know, maybe have an abortion?" she suggested. I bite my bottom lip. I could do that, but I still would'nt feel good about it. There is after all a life growing inside of me. "Never. God, this is complicated!"
What if I have s*x with Tom, and pretend he made me pregnant? Would that work?