bittersweet amour.

thirty five.

you've got them all fooled.
The way you walk with such confidence, people will think you're so in love with yourself.
a narcissist.
the way you laugh at the smallest things in life, people will think you're so carefree.
an easy going person.
the way you look at things with such hope and never degrade anyone or anything, believing that everyone is capable of redemption.
an optimist.
but, you got them all fooled.
everyday, you struggle to live.
you're there for everyone because no one has ever been there for you.
you live a life in a pit
of darkness, with no way out.
the thoughts in your mind are the bullets and the gun, is your heart.
you keep breaking your own heart with your thoughts.
killing yourself, day by day.
why would people think you're a narcissist?
It's because of what your father, told you
"you might be weak, the weakest person, but never let the world feed on your weakness. walk it off, walk like you don't care, walk like you got no care in the world."
you never disrespected your father.
so everyday, you live a lie.
you are the master of deception, indeed.
but, too bad, I saw right through your disguise.