Working for Mr. Bennington

Pulling through these bad nightmares part 1

I woke up the next morning around 7 and I look next to me. Chester was lying next to me with his arms around me. I smiled when I saw him next to me. I missed him next to me. I turn on my side and I just stare at him. He is so unbelievably beautiful. But just being there with him makes my heart beat faster. But there was apart of me still in prison. It was hard for me in there. The first few days were the worst days in my life. What I've been through in there is something I would never wish on anyone. Not even on my worst enemy. I laid there for a few more minutes just staring. Lost in thoughts while I rub my fingers on his arms. I feel a kiss against my cheek and I turn to see Chester's awake. He smiles when I look at him.

"Morning baby girl."

"Hey..." 

"Where are your thoughts?"

"Um... Just far away I guess."

"You wanna talk baby girl?"

I shook my head and give him a slight smile.

"You sure?"

"Yeah."

"I'm here if you want to talk about something baby girl. Don't keep it inside."

"I'm just glad to be back."

"Me too. I have a surprise for you."

"What?"

"Something I want to show you. I've been working on something."

"Are you guys already busy with the new album?" 

"You'll see when I show you." he chuckles.

I nod and smile at him. 

"I'm going to go take a shower." I said getting up. 

"Can I join you?" he asks smirking.

I look at him and he gets up. He walks to me and put his arms around me. I put my arms around his neck and look him in his eyes.

"May I join you baby girl?"

I sighed looking down.

"What's the matter baby girl?" he frowns at me.

"Um.... I have bad scars on my body...." 

"Show me." he says shrugging his shoulders.

"I... Don't think you want to see them." I said breaking away from him. I crossed my arms around myself and look down.

"Baby girl you don't have to be ashamed around me with anything. You know that by now."

I shook my head looking to the floor and I had tears in my eyes. He comes to me and he lifts my chin up to look at him. 

"Show me." he says.

I sighed and I turned around. I took my shirt off and hold my shirt in my arms. I look to the floor. He comes to me and I feel he is touching the scars with his fingers. Making me move away.

"Baby girl just trust me." he says. I look back to him and he looks at me with a concern look on his face. "Please." he says. I nod and look down again. He comes closer to me and he touches my scars again.

"What happened in there?" he asks.

I sighed and tears comes to my eyes.

"Baby girl talk to me."

"They... cut my skin with razor blades after they have hit and pushed me around. That's why I didn't shower much. I couldn't sleep. My roommate weren't bad. But I just couldn't sleep. I was too scared. The first few days in there felt like a nightmare that never end." I said and tears escape my eyes.