Bad Boy's Diary - The New Girl ✔️

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Edited as of March 4, 2020

Bad Boy's Diary — The New Girl

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Nayeon

I walked towards my locker, not surprised at all. Mean words were decorated all over my locker.

I sighed as I open it. I swear, at this rate, I cannot be bothered to clean my locker...

One week, two weeks, three...

It has been a month since the whole saga. Of course, I did cry during the first week because nobody was there for me. I have never felt so alone in my entire life.

I tried to approach Jennie and Yoongi but all I received in return was isolation and ignorance from them.

"Hi, could we tal-"

"Would you like to move to the other table there? Wouldn't like to sit with strangers right, Yoongi?"

I really tried my best.

As for Jungkook, I distant myself away from him because all I wanted to do was to mend my relationship with Jennie. That was a priority.

He did offer to stay back in Korea to accompany me or to bring me over to Australia for the immersion programme. I declined.

And as if that wasn't the end to my list, my one and only grandfather was hospitalised. His condition isn't improving day by day and I just felt so empty, so lost. I just want to talk to someone about it, and by that someone, I really wished it was Jennie, or if possible, Yoongi.

Judging by the situation I am in, I could only bottle up my feelings no matter how much I am struggling to stay strong for my family.

Every day after school, I just went to the hospital to visit him. It was really sudden, just a week ago he was still fine, witty as usual and chirpy. But right now, he was lying on the hospital bed with tons of tubes surrounding him.

The sight of him was heart-wrenching......

I definitely missed my witty, cheerful, boisterous and loving grandfather.

"What's wrong, sweetheart?" His weak voice came about as he saw me lost in my thoughts. "It's n-nothing much," I replied, grinning.

He let out a soft chuckle and silence.

"Come on, turn that frown upside down. Life isn't a bed of roses."

I smiled at his remark, "You got to need your glasses to see that my frown is always upside down."

"Bring me my glasses then, I haven't taken a good look at my beautiful angel." Tugging his glasses in place, I leaned closer for him to take a look. His trembling wrinkly hands reached out for my face to cup them, "Can't believe that you're all grown up already... It felt like yesterday when I changed your diaper and gave you piggybacks around the yard..."

"Right, still remembered the days when you would fetch me to and fro from school. And remember how we always try to hide the fact from my mom that we went out for fast food after school? She'll get hopping mad that she starts giving you a lecture on how such meals would ruin my health and you would just tell her how she pestered you for fried chicken every morning."

He laughed, "Yeah, I wanted you to have the most memorable childhood, just like how I made sure your mother had one too. My one and only grandchild, my sweet little angel..."

"And you're the best grandfather on earth. Probably the coolest one too."

"You obviously have been having too much sweet stuff for all the overflowing sweet comments. It's pretty late, go home soon alright? I want to take a rest now."

"Take care, alright. I'm really apologetic that I won't be able to drop by tomorrow, considering that my favourite r&b singer is in town... So see you on Saturday instead! Love you!" I said while sending a flying kiss to him.

"Remember that I want you to live your life to the fullest? Do things that make you happy. Goodbye, sweetheart. I love you, too."

And who would have guessed that goodbye was really a good bye?

"Wake up, baby. We've got to rush to the hospital as soon as possible."

'Rush to the hospital as soon as possible'

Something was amiss. I know what my mom meant but I keep telling myself that it will be a joke.

I shot up from my bed and rushed to brush my teeth.

"It's gonna be fine, Nay. Calm down, Nay. Deep breaths." I kept reassuring myself while getting dressed.

Upon pulling up at the carpark of the hospital, my mother and I rushed up to my grandfather's ward to see a group of medical officers surrounding his bed.

There laid my beloved grandfather, with his eyes shut, looking at ease, at peace.

I walked towards him, trying to hold back my tears. My hands reached out to his, only to feel a pair of cold hands. I looked up to the doctors who just stood there in silence.

"Hey, grandpa. It's your mischievous little monkey here. W-wake up." I whispered as a tear rolled out of my eye. "Wake up please, stop pulling my leg." I tried to laugh but the laughter turned into sobs. As soon as realisation hit me, I was crying uncontrollably.

"What time did this happened?" My mother asked calmly, like as if she predicted this to happen...

"Six forty-eight. We've tried our best."

I looked at my watch, it was six fifty-eight currently.

Why didn't you wait ten minutes for me? Why didn't you hang in there for me, for us? Why did you leave just like that?

My mother hugged me tightly.

"Did you know? That he was going to go soon?" I asked.

"Y-no."

"Quit lying to me, tell me the truth!!" I pushed her away and shouted.

"Y-yes, we found out yesterday that his oxygen level in his body was very low and he has at most til Monday to live-"

"Why didn't you tell me? Why?! Why did you hide the truth from me?!"

"I didn't want to ruin your mood for the concert. I-"

"You know I'd have skipped the concert and spend more time with grandpa! I hate you!" I ran out of the room and to places as far as my feet brought me to.

All I wanted right now was for Jennie to comfort me, telling me that everything would be alright. I dialled for her but to no avail. I dialled for Yoongi too, but to no avail.

I squat down, unaware of my surroundings, hugging my legs together. I didn't have anymore tears left to cry. My grandfather would not be coming back, so is my best friend.

My mother lied to me. She was the cause to how I didn't manage to see my grandfather take his final breath.

All I felt was pain, guilt and loneliness. It seemed like everyone had their back turned on me...

Suicidal thoughts creeped into my mind. What was the point of living on when your mother is always busy, your best friend ignoring you, and your grandfather gone.

I told myself to stay strong but I feel so lifeless.

Little did I know, darkness overwhelmed me......

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Seoul Soul: They say to always treasure your loved ones but sometimes we're not fated to treasure them til the very end. Until then, you know where to find me kiddos, I'm just one click away!

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