Bad Boy's Diary - The New Girl ✔️

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Bad Boy's Diary — The New Girl

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Nayeon

I sat on the floor and started to scratch my inner thighs until I felt blood oozing down my leg. Although I may have felt slightly better after that self-harm, I wanted to leave school so badly. I took my phone out and dialled for Mingyu when I received an incoming text from SS.

Seoul Soul: Save your hypocritical tears for something else. Just thought that you might want to read something from the Bad Boy's Diary:")

I wiped my tears away and clicked on the image. It was a picture taken of a diary entry, and I recognise that handwriting... I zoomed in to the image and read the content.

Dear Diary,

F*ck. Why is she like a ray of sunshine, always brightening up my days and stirring emotions in me? I hate the fact that she has this effect of making me feel, things. I was never like that before I met her at the empty walkway on her first day of school. I knew she was different when she appeared. To confirm my vibes, I messed with her. Dude even like this morning when I saw her with another guy, I felt my jaw and fist clenched in anger and jealousy. All those even though she made a tiny petty mistake of getting close to me for a motive...

Yes, I felt used and I am angry. Yes, I felt jealousy too, that's because it was as if she liked the feeling of being chased by two guys. If that's what she likes, I would leave this lame game which is totally out of my league.

Love,

M.Y.G.

I was speechless... If you really like a girl, then why would you give her up so easily? I made a mental note to confront him. I wanted answers.

I changed into my sports attire to hide my scratch scars and wash up before leaving the restroom. While walking back to class, Jungkook stood in front of my locker, waiting for me. "Were you crying in the bathroom?" Jungkook asked. I shook my head and smile. "It's okay Nayeon, I got things settled." He took his phone out and dialled for delivery.

A few minutes later, we were standing in the middle of the aisle where the lockers are located at. Together with us were milk cartons, Jungkook smirked as he picked one up and threw it at a student's locker. I jumped when the packet burst and the locker were stained with the content. "Oh my God, what are you doing?" I gasped. "Taking revenge for you?" Jungkook replied as he takes another packet of milk and tries to throw. I reached out to his arm immediately to stop him. "You do know it's a waste to spend such good milk on these people right? They're undeserving of your kindness."

"And you are undeserving of their antics. I was the one at fault but they came for you instead." I sighed upon hearing what he said. I hugged Jungkook, knowing he was probably the only friend I have left, "Thank you. I missed you."

Jungkook chuckled and patted my head, "Well, I am back now. Anyways do you want to skip school today? Let's catch up or something. It's been quite some time, ain't it?"

"Sure."

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"I saw and heard lots of headlines of you partying really hard... Are you okay?"

"If I say yes, you'll be doubtful. If I say no, you'll push your way through and try to make things okay for me. So which answer do you want to hear?"

Jungkook laughed as he took out his phone, reading headlines on SS. "Spotted: Wild Child doing the walk of shame this morning. Ms Liar turned Wild-Child is spotted getting all hot and messy with a group of guys at Club Z. Eenie Meenie, Miney Moe, which of these guys would Ms Liar choose? I think I would choose 'no' as the answer. I know you, pretty girl, you're not like this if nothing's bothering you."

"Okay, fine. I am not okay. I blame myself for not prioritising spending time with my grandfather. I blame myself for not being filial towards him when he was still around. I blame myself for still being jocular despite everything's happening. I blame my mother for keeping me in the dark. Why wasn't I strong enough to defend myself and explain to my friends. This cost me friendships and when my grandfather passed on suddenly, I didn't have anyone to talk to. I felt lost, I didn't know who I was anymore. It was as if I was in a world of darkness. I couldn't sleep at night without crying. But then again, I do not know why I was crying..." I was fighting tears back as I recalled the pain I have buried deep in me. "Then, I turned to partying for me to forget the unhappiness. Being with the different boys still made me experience a sense of emptiness. None of these guys were like Yoongi, no offence by the way."

"None taken." Jungkook pouted.

I continued, "As dumb as this sounds, it may seem like I slept with them but the truth is I didn't. I tend to regain consciousness, feeling dirty for sleeping next to the different guys. Thankfully, Mingyu was always there keeping me safe and feel less dirty..."

"Not gonna lie, lowkey am going to kill SS for trying to portray you in such a spotlight..." Jungkook spoke as he cracked his knuckles. "Anyways, thank you for initiating a catch up with me. I really needed it."

"No worries, hopefully, you're feeling better right now." He beamed at me. "Also Jungkook, please keep our conversation today a secret. I do not want others to know about it."

Winking at me, he ensured me, "You can count on me for secrets..."

Seoul Soul: Oh boy, I wonder if Queen J would still keep the 'welcome back to school' party after knowing her bae and wild-child were seen hanging out, out of school. But I suppose the Queen is feeling generous by inviting everyone, including the irrelevant and wild-child. I'll be watching!

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Seoul Soul: Ooh la la~ We wonder what would happen at the party when everyone comes face to face. Until then, you know where to find me, kiddos. I am just one click away!¡

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