I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your sideHe's gone. He's dead. Jason blossom, my best friend, my lover, my everything was gone. Not only did he leave for Polly, he was murdered.
Clifford blossom. My hate for him is an understatement. I hated him with a passion. He murdered the love of my life.
I loved him. I always need him. So every night since he left for Polly, I sat in the bar. Drinking, drink after drink. No one was there to stop me. I'll go home with someone and be gone by morning.
Like now, I'm at a party, drinking my pain away, grinding on some random guy. I let him touch me. I let him kiss my skin, leaving marks.
It's doesn't matter, he will never see me again anyway. So what does it matter?
When you walk away, I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?When he walked away, for Polly. I couldn't help it. I remembered it like yesterday. I broke down in tears. I almost fell to the ground but Cheryl was there for me. She was there when he left. She was there when i found out he was dead. She's here now. Watching me destroy my life. My pride got the best of me.
The devil found me and wasn't leaving anytime soon.
"Let's take this upstairs." The random guy said. I smirked and nodded. We walked upstairs and walked into a bedroom. We undressed and got to it.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss youDoes this make me a horrible person? I signed as we finished. He passed out and I climbed out of the bed quietly. Getting dressed, I stood up and looked at the guy. Maybe he wouldn't remember. Maybe.
Walking out the random house, I started to walk down the street, trying to find my house. Once I made it to my house, I opened the door. My parents were home, arguing like usual.
I went upstairs and took a shower. I got out and got dressed. I put on my makeup and threw my hair up into a messy bun.
I went downstairs to see my parents still fighting. Rolling my eyes, I grabbed my car keys.
"Bye!" They didn't even notice me. So why do I bother? Well, maybe someday they will notice and actually care. I slammed my car door shut and started to drive away. Away from this place I called home to go to hell (school).
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do, reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you doI went through another day filled with fake smiles, fake laughs, and kindness. When in reality, I'm not happy, I don't feel like laughing, and I just wanted to tell everyone and anyone off if they so much as look at me wrong.
Cheryl came up to me. She looked at me and frowned. She pulled me into a hug.
"It will be okay, Y/n." She told me, although she looked as if she was trying to convince herself the same thing. She knew it wasn't going to be okay. That nothing will be the same as it use to be. We lost someone. Someone very important. To us, to Riverdale, to the people of Riverdale, to me.
When you walk away, I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?I went home and went into my room. It was quiet. My parents must be gone. Rolling my eyes I started on my homework.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss youI went into my bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet. Signing, I grabbed the closest pills I could fine. I grabbed the bottle and opened it. Do I really want to do this?
Yes. I want to be with Jason. It's crazy what love can do to you, isn't it.
I poured the pills in my hand and took them. I swallowed them. After a few seconds, I felt dizzy. I stood up and grabbed my razor.
I cut my wrists til I felt my life slowly fading away.
We were made for each other, out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeahBeep. Beep. Beep.
I slowly opened my eyes to see I'm in a white room. I looked over to see a machine. I had banages wrapped around my wrists.
I looked over to my right. Where Cheryl sat in a chair. She was sound asleep.
I felt guilty. I can't believe I tried to leave her alone. She lost someone to. Someone important to her. Her twin. I felt a tear fall.
"Y/n." I looked up hearing her voice. She got up and rushed to me. She wrapped her arms around me.
"I thought I lost you."
"Well you didn't. I'm still here." I smiled weakly, trying to make a joke. She giggled softly. I hugged her back.
She pulled away. Tears fell from her eyes.
"I'm sorry." My voice was heard.
"I understand why you did it." She said. More tears fell.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you"Promise me you won't every do that again."
"I promise." We hugged again. Maybe things will be okay.
Maybe.
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What do you guys think of my first Riverdale imagine. Sorry it's short.
I hope you guys enjoyed it. ~lindsey
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