In A Heartbeat (completed)

Chapter 15: Breaking point

(A/N):

Ok, if you are sensitive to suicide attempts or depression I think you may not want to read this, well I've warned ya so let the story begin! --------------------------------------------------------

Sherwins p.o.v

Beep! Beep! Beep! Bee-! Click!

I wake up and look at the time, 6:30. I also check the date just in case the alarm clock woke me up on the wrong day, and sadly it didn't. I'm going back to school and I'm scared. I'm really scared of what Tiffany will do when she sees me..... but brushing all that off (for now) I grab a random T-Shirt and random jeans, and set them out for when I'm done taking a shower.

~Time Skip~

As I am getting out and drying my self off I see the cuts and surprisingly they have gotten a lot better! I got to me room and put on my clothes, after that I put on light jacket and then a heavy one. It's really cold outside, so I don't wanna catch a cold. I look at the clock and it said 6:55, so I decided to make some toasted bread, spread jam on it and leave so I could get to school early.

~Time Skip~

When I got there it was 7:36, and class starts at 8:00. So I decided I would wait by my locker till about 7:40 and maybe talk to Cbay if I see her. I was thinking about what I wanted to do in my spare time and suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder, I look to see it's only Cbay. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and then said "Hey Cbay, what are you doing?" "Oh nothing." She responded, it was a few moments of silence before she spoke up. "So wanna go see my hide out?" Of course I said yes and we both went over to her hide out, when we walked in I saw Buttercup sitting on the floor. "Hey Buttercup! I brought Sherwin!" Cbay said after that we all had fun and talked for 10 minutes. "Hey Sherwin, if you come to school at 5:30am then we can all hand out here for a while." Buttercup told me "Oh, ok then!" As we walked out and went to our lockers class was about to start, so we went our separate ways.

~Time Skip To Lunch~

I was eating happily when suddenly I felt.... off, I don't know why but I did. It was like I was just empty inside, and it just suddenly hit me. I kept a smile even tho it was fake just so I didn't have to talk about it or anything. I also just didn't want to eat, it was like my body needed food, but I wouldn't allow it? I don't know. I'll just ignore it, its probably nothing.

~Time Skip To End Of Day~

When I was walking home with Cbay and Buttercup, something felt off. I felt weird around them, it was almost like they're my "fake friends" in a sense. I know that wasn't true but..... I- I don't know at this point....

When we got to my house we said our goodbyes and I went into my house. I walked in and no one was home. I walked to my room to rest for a bit, maybe those will help with these...... things, i don't know. I lay down and try to go to sleep, and sadly I can't. I start staring at the ceiling and starts thinking about somethings. 'I wonder if anyone will miss me if I die.' Or 'If I died right now, who would care and who wouldn't.' And things like 'No one cares about me or if I die...... I'm just a wast of space....' then it hits me..... I should just kill my self. I walk to the laundry room and go threw the cabinets in there, I see the bleach all the way in the back. I grab it and fill the cap up and right as I'm going to drink it I hear someone burst threw my front door. Then I hear running up the steps and right as the cup is a little as a inch away from my lips, the person makes me dro the cup spilling it everywhere. I didn't get a good look at the person, because next thing I knew, I blacked out......

"*groans* what happened?" I look around and see I'm only in my room.... hmm.... must have just slept weird. I look at the time and see it's 8:45 so I go down stairs and just as I make it to the bottom step I see my mom come in threw the front door.