In A Heartbeat (completed)

Chapter 21: Why?

School has started once again, and I was the last to wake-up. I woke up to the smell of something good. You know, ever since Buttercup, Cbay, and her little sister moved in, my mother has been better lately.
She can count on all of us to stay home alone and not worry about me feeling sad now. She even calls the girls her daughter from time to time. I'm glad we are all happy. Oh yea the story, sorry for going off topic!
I come down stairs pulling my new uniform on, the school decided to use school uniforms now. I don't know why but I can't wait to see Jonathan in his!?! After we all ate, and my mother left for work, we soon left. We were of course were early.
When we arrived we decided to mess around the campus. Buttercup decided to mess around the art room, while me and Cbay decided to mess around the kitchen. When we arrived to the kitchen we jumped the counter letting us into the other side.
"Sherwin, Sherwin look!" I look over to her to see her wearing the lunch lady's hairnet and holding a big spoon. "I'm the lunch lady! Fear me and eat this...food?" I laughed but soon stopped when I heard someone enter the kitchen from the back door. Me and Cbay were so scared that we hid in the freezer.
Wrong decision!?! "I-It's so cold!" I said trying to rub my arms for warmth. "Oh god..." Said Cbay as she tried to open the door. I froze in fear when she turned around holding the frozen door handle. We heard the lunch lady leave and began to panic even more. We banged the door over and over then we looked up and, WOW there was the vents and stuff.
We began to stack up boxes against boxes until we made a stair way to the vent above us. By this time we finished the stair, we were icicles. Frost began to form in our hair, and we had mini icicles forming on our clothing. We were shivering due to how cold it was in here. "S-s-Sherwin, w-w-we nee-ed a s-screw d-d-driver." Said Cbay trying to pull the vent cover forcefully.
I look around the freezing room, and find a carrot. I grab it and its as hard as a rock. "W-w-will t-this wo-work?" I say handing it to her. She nods and then gets to work. I look out the window and see Buttercup! But wait, she's crying? I bang the glass door as hard I can and I catch her attention. She runs over and wipes her tears and acts as if nothing happened. I somehow managed to tell her that we were going through the vents and that we needed her help navigating through. Before, I knew it, we were in the air vents wandering through looking for Buttercup.
"BUTTERCUP!" Yelled Cbay who was in front of me. I looked down to avoid looking at her...um...tooshie. "Cbay?" We heard a quiet response. We began to yell as loud as we could then from out of the corner was Buttercup! Luckily we came into a big space way to the point we could sit in a circle and sit up. "I thought you guys left me!" Says Buttercup.
"School started an hour ago, so I thought...." Said Buttercup looking at her feet. "WHAT!" Me and Cbay yelled.
A while after getting out of the vents, we returned to our classes and hoped to forget what had just happened. Luckily we missed math class and it was time for our last class which was art. We didn't enter the class and saw the art teacher outside blowing off some steam. Buttercup didn't even let us question what was going on, she just grabbed our hands and led us inside.
Boy was I surprised, the room was upside down. LITERALLY! The desks and canvases were glued to the ceiling and lights were removed from the ceiling to the floor. "B-buttercup, did you?" I asked not looking away from the ceiling, lightly nudging her. Buttercup nodded and crossed her arms with satisfaction.
Art was cancelled and we were able to wait outside while the teachers figured out what to do. Lots of kids where playing games of all sorts, but me Buttercup and Cbay decided to chill under a tree and relax. "How'd you manage to do that!" Said Cbay leaning against the tree letting the cool breeze fly by her. "Well, I had some help~" She said simply laying on the grass with bits of grass and clovers sticking out. She looked at her hand that was raised somewhat near her face where a butterfly was. "I started a clan thing. Were going to be the most wanted prankster clan thingy!" Wow..."Is it bad that I think this isn't going to end well..." I said reading a book. "No, not really. I bet there all going to rebel against you, Buttercup!" Said Cbay. "Oh no, I made sure they didn't and wont." Said Buttercup going so dark all of a sudden. It frightened me but Cbay seemed used to it.
"Hey Sherwin, I've noticed that Jonathan was avoiding you...is he?" Asked Cbay. "Yea, I noticed that too. I wanted to talk to him but I was busy with the whole prank and stuff." Replied Buttercup. I stayed silent. "W-well, I know...I tried to ignore it." I say looking down. Cbay puts a hand on my shoulder and said, "It's okay, me and Buttercup will figure out what's wrong!"
The bell rang and before Cbay and Buttercup were anywhere near Jonathan I ran up to him luckily before he got out the gates. "Jonathan!" I say as I finally catch up. "Oh, hi." He said looking away. "Why have you been avoiding me?" I asked in a firm tone. Never have I ever been this confident to raise my voice up. "Well, I um...I t-thought you were absent...?" He says. He clearly lying, his ears got all red and he seems nervous. "Jonathan don't lie to me." I say getting irritated. He stayed quiet.
"Look Sherwin, the truth is...My parents are religious and..." He said no more. I realized. That day when we arrived to his house, I told them accidently that I was gay..."Bye." I say holding back tears. I begin to walk but before I make it any farther he grabbed my hand. "Wait Sherwin, please..." I could tell he was about to cry, I heard it in his voice. I was so hurt I didn't care anymore. I pulled my arm away as hard as I could and it worked. I was free and began to walk. I cried as I walked.
Every step I took, it seemed as though my legs got heavier. I luckily arrived home, Cbay Crystal and Buttercup were there waiting for me. Cbay asked what had happened due to the tears still streaming down my face. Buttercup held Crystal and Cbay back as I headed to my room and locked myself in there.
I cried and cried until I had fallen asleep.

I woke up...it was dark. I checked my phone to see it was two in the morning. I was so tired, no physically but emotionally. I'm tired of constantly being rejected and mistreated. I was so tired...opened my room door quietly and snuck out. I knew exactly what I was going to do. The plan was set in mind.
I snuck back into my room, put on some sneakers an jumped to a nearest tree. I almost missed the branch and scrapped my hands in the process. I got a few cuts here and there, but I was fine. I felt so weak but what I was going to do would take all my pain away.
I Snuck into the garage and used my phone as a flashlight. It took a while but I soon found what I was looking for. A rope. You all might be wondering why didn't I exit through the front door, well Buttercup, Cbay and Crystal sleep in the living room so.
I grabbed the rope and ran. I didn't cry nor did I laugh. I had never felt this empty since my father....
I ran into an ally way near the houses. I thought it would be nice enough letting them find my corpse easily. I hope my mother wont be the one to find me...I honestly hope it's Tiffany I want her to see what she's done me.
I hang the rope on a pole way up high, and prepare the boxes onto one another. I stand on the boxes. I feel weird. I feel a little scared but at the same time I feel all the weight on my shoulders go.
I pull the rope over my head and tighten it.
I stop wait if I do...if I do this dad would get exactly what he wanted. He'll win...But he doesn't matter anymore. He's nothing to me...He's nothing more than a nightmare to me.
Why? Why is it that I start to act all brave at a time like this?
"I'm so sorry..." I say as I tip over the boxes. I saw my dad in looking out of the corner laughing. I didn't care. I didn't even bother to struggle. All that I could hear was myself choking as the last breath of air left my body. I don't know what happened next...It felt so dark and cold.

Hey it's Buttercup I have some news for you readers....THE END IS COMING! This story will have no more than two more chapters. I haven't updated in such a long time so I'm going to write the two last chapters as a sorry for you and Cbay. Plus I didn't want to continuously leave you on a cliff hanger. I remember when this story had no more than 40 readers. We've gone so far. I'm glad Cbay excepted to work with me. She boosted my confidence and made me feel good about my work. I want to thank Cbay for all the help and all the time she's put into this. I want to thank you readers, if it weren't for you all we wouldn't be here. Btw the ending will be something this week! I'm love you all and Good bye!