19th June 2018
4:29 pm
I'm home alone, sat in the living room, staring at the photo of you. I can't help but smile because you look so genuinely happy. I miss you and your happiness. It's such a cliché but you could honestly brighten up any room you entered. With your smile. Your laughter. Your jokes.
How long does it take to fully accept someone's death?
Even though I was at your house yesterday and today it didn't feel like you were gone. I kept imagining that any minute you'd come and walk through the door.
I went up town today and I swear I saw you. Over and over again I thought I saw you and then once I got closer I realised it wasn't. It was just a stranger. I can't understand the fact I'll never be able to see you again in my life. 😭💔
Maybe the funeral will help my brain accept the fact that you have died. Whenever the realisation does hit me, I can't breathe. I'm overwhelmed with too many questions and painful emotions.
If this is how it feels too lose someone, then what's the point of being close to people.
If we are all born to die, why be born at all?
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For Him
RandomThe things I wish I had said to you but didn't because I thought we had the time left together.
