dear nobody

8•22•17

FLOWER

right now i just want to cry..i hate that over the summer i felt like the most confident bitch in the world and now i feel like some worthless little fat girl all over again..what the fuck is this about?! how does this just happen like why me? was i not doing something right? has the devil got his hands that far around my neck to where he can squeeze and let up as he pleases? why me? why now? why like this? why is my life so important to fuck up? how can a girl go from feeling like the world is her oyster to feeling like she would rather just stay in a cocoon and never grace the world with her presence? how could she think that everyone around her isn't trustworthy and that she is a complete fraud to society? truth is..i feel hate towards everyone..why? i dont know? i feel the bitter sting of anger and annoyance if someone even does something that hurts me even a little bit. how can someone be so sensitive but at the same time be so hard with their heart? how can time take a freshly bloomed flower and poison it to die even before it had time to live into the springtime? thats how i feel.

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vegas was good to me that summer