Out of all the guys, I had to choose him(Philip Hamilton x Reader)

Chapter 15

(A/N this chapter involves panic attacks read at your own risk.)
"He left?"
"Yes, I'm very sorry."
I then rush out of the building and start running to his house. Tears in my eyes. I never should've said those things, I never should've left him, o should've just accepted the offer, but I didn't! I kept running my heels clicking against the cobblestone road.
He probably hates me, never wants to se same again. His father is right, I am a bitch! I did break his heart! I never should've dated him in the first place. I finally reached the Hamilton's house. I knocked.
"Are you alright dear?"
I fall onto me knees and start sobbing.
"Oh my gosh! (Y/N) are you alright?"
I-it's all my-y -f-f-a-ault! I-I'm the wo-r-rst!
"Here come inside." She helps me up and sets me down.
I still sobbed, I heard sad depression piano music playing, I started sobbing even more.
I-I'm the w-orst girl-f-friend eve-r! I shou-d-dnt Be here. I don't -d-deserve your s-son.
It was hard for me to breathe.
"Shh Shh, Don't day that, breathe." Eliza tried to calm me down. I started to have a panic attack.
Eliza not really sure tried to tell me to calm down and breathe, she tried to hug me but I pushed her away. I was gasping for air, chocking on my tears.
"Philip!" Eliza yells at the top of her lungs
"What?!" He says coming out of the room and into the living room. I'm holding my stomach and coughing and chocking because of my tears. I couldn't breathe at all, I was gasping desperately for air.
"Holy shit." Philip rushes towards me.
He crouched down and comes near me slowly, then wrapped his arms around me.
"Shh. Shh. Breathe (Y/N), breathe. You're going to be alright I promise. I got you, it's okay. Shh. Breathe." He took me in his arms and was rocking me a little and was hugging me as he was trying to calm me down. I slowly started to calm down. And drifted off to sleep.
-Angelica's POV-
I burst through the door, then was shushed by Philip and Eliza who was placing (Y/N) on the sofa.
"Is she alright?" I whispered
Philip nodded.
"We just need to let her rest." Mama says.
"Okay, that's good. What happened?"
"She has a panic attack." Philip said as he looked at (Y/N).
"Oh my gosh that's horrible." I put my hands over my mouth.
"At least she's better now, come on kids off to bed." Mama said and pointed upstairs.
"Yes Mama." We answered then made our way upstairs to out bedrooms.
-(Y/N) POV-
I woke up and looked around noticing I was at the Hamilton's.
Philip walked out of the kitchen and handed me a glass of water.
"I'm glad your up." Philip said smiling.
I placed my water on the table and pulled him down and hugged him. I started to cry.
"I'm so *sniff* sorry. I'm so so sorry. I never should've acted that way last night at the ball. I'm the worst."
"Hey hey, it's alright. You're not the worst."
"Yes I am, I'm the worst girlfriend ever."
"No you're not, you're the best girlfriend ever."
"Then I shouldn't have ran away from you."
"Shh Shh, it's okay, but why did you?"
I let go of him and fiddled with my thumbs.
"I can't dance.......I was afraid that if we danced I would embarrass you by being a huge klutz."
"Why didn't you just tell me?"
"I was scared of what you would say....."
"(Y/N) you know I love you no matter what right?"
I sniffed and wiped away my tears "I know, I love you Philip Hamilton."
"I love you too (Y/N) Jefferson. And that's why I must ask you this."
She looked up.
"Hm?"
"Will you go out with me?"
She chuckled. "Of course!"
-Philip's POV-
I talked with Ange after (Y/N) and I's date.
"Ah! You're going to ask (Y/N)'s Father if you could court (Y/N)?!" Ange said jumping up and down.
"Yeah! Hopefully he says yes."
"I'm sure he will! Ah I'm so excited! Do you hear that?"
"Me too! Hear what?"
"The wedding bells!" She smiled at me.
I blushed "shush."
She giggled.