Out of all the guys, I had to choose him(Philip Hamilton x Reader)

Chapter 29

-Philip's POV-
Ugh work is so frustrating. I mean, being a lawyer is fun and all, but frustrating. I hope (Y/N) and John are okay. I didn't even really say goodbye to them, I both kisses there foreheads goodbye, but usually if I don't let (Y/N) she freaks out. Shit! I hope she didn't have an attack this morning. God I'm a horrible husband(as I wrote this it changed horrible to hot, "hot husband" I mean it's true but that's not what I meant) and if she did, I wasn't there to help. I'll have to ask her tonight, she better be alive. Stay alive.
-(Y/N) POV-
As I was making lunch John started to cry. I rushed upstairs to the bedroom. John Laurens was already there trying to calm him down. I still don't understand how I can see him. But I'm not really around him as much as John Laurens. I took John out of his crib and started to calm him down.
"Sorry I didn't pick him up, I wasn't sure I could."
"It's okay John Laurens. Jeez I need to find a nick name for one of you. Heh"
"Well I call your son lil John, but if you want you can call me Laurens."
I nodded, "Sure I can call you Laurens."
John finally calmed down, but he was still crying, "he might be hungry."
"Yeah, you should probably feed him." Laurens said patting John's head.
I cleared my throat.
"Oh right! He's not old enough for that kind of food, I'll leave you to it, I'll be in the hallway."
Laurens starts to walk backwards, "Laurens the wall—- as I said that he walked through the wall. Oh right he can do that. I started to feed John, til he was full, then I heard a knock on the door.
"Laurens you can come in."
Instead of Laurens, Philip walked in.
"Laurens? Are you fucking cheating on me?!"
"No no no no I swear!" I started to cry.
"Oh shit I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. But who's Laurens?"
"John Laurens, your old guardian angel, well now he's John's but I can also see him."
"Right........"
"Philip I'm not insane! Believe me!"
"Okay okay I do, sorry."
I went to give John to The Philip so he could hold him.
"You're home early." We sat down on the bed.
"Yeah, I went in early so I can finish all the paperwork, and come home early."
"I know you left." I started to tear up.
"You noticed? You only usually do when I wake you up and say goodbye."
"I woke up......"
"Apparently heh. You okay?"
"Because of a nightmare.....and I started to have a panic(! At the disco!) attack. I started to let the tears fall.
-Philip's POV-
Oh my god! How could I do this to her?! Why did I not let her know I was gone?!
"(Y/N) I'm so so sorry, I should've told you I was leaving. What was it about? How did you calm down?"

She explained what the nightmare was about, god I feel horrible, that was one of the worst nightmares she has had. She probably wouldn't have had one or an attack if I just stayed here, to comfort her.
"(Y/N) I'm so sorry, I should've stayed."
"Philip, it's alright, just let me know when you leave okay?"
"Deal. But how did you calm down."
"Well......"
"Well?" I raised a brow.
"You remember John Laurens, he helped some how."
"How? I thought only John, the baby, would be able to see him."
"He can, but your dad and I can also see him, must be this kind of parent thing, you know how knows him best, like Alex and me."
"Huh? You never met him though?"
"Alex and I talked a little more about him when you left the study."
"Oh."
"Sorry Philip."
"(Y/N) I'm not mad, it's just a little confusing." I chuckled at the fact she thought I was mad.
It truly was confusing, it sounded fake, but I believed her.
"Yeah, I'm a little confused too, so you're not alone heh."
"At least you had someone to calm you down, that's good."
"Yeah, Really good." She let out a light chuckle.
"At least both of you are safe."
"Hey! I told Laurens to protect you silly." She poked my nose, I grabbed her hand and held it.
"Thank you." I kissed our intertwined fingers, "I love you."
"I love you too." She kisses my forehead.
"Oh right! I have sandwiches downstairs if you're hungry." She stood up and toke John out of my arms.
"Good, I'm starving. Did he already eat?"
"Yuppers."
We all made our way downstairs, (Y/N) put John in a high chair so he wasn't alone upstairs.
I sat down next to John at the table and pat his head. (Y/N) placed the plate down in front of me and sat down on the other side(right here, right now, I put the offer out!) of John. We both ate our lunch and talked about our day.

A/N
Sorry that it is short! I didn't really have any ideas. But I know what is coming next, so I will update soon. Goodbye for now
~ The Mockingbird ❤️