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A New Page

It's been about ten days since I was able to leave the hospital. I've managed to catch up with all of my schoolwork by staying up late after school. The guys have been nicer, but I've noticed how Yoongi seemed to be a bit more suspicious than usual. Lately he's been giving me weird looks and glances. He's also been hanging around the bitc-Yuri more often which shocked me. He was also the one who told me to stop calling her a bitch.

Everything's just been a bit hectic and I haven't been able to find enough sleep. I've been cutting again. I've been cutting a lot. I know that there are dark circles around my eyes and that there are bags under them. I know that I get my headaches from my lack of sleep. I know that I'm stressing out on everything because I'm overthinking things and because I afraid. I'm afraid of losing so many things. I used to be an entirely different person but now I'm just so lost.

I sighed as I walked to the public library to work on a project for history and to do homework. Lately it seems as if I've gotten ten times more homework in all of my classes even after I finished all of my late work. Everything's also been more awkward after everybody at school learned about what had happened. I just ignored everybody and stayed low with Subin and Jae Chan.

I greeted the librarian who was putting a stack of books on a shelf before I took a seat at a table near the very back of the library where almost no one goes. I placed my backpack on the floor next to me and pulled out my textbooks. I began taking notes in my notebooks that I hadn't been able to get due to everything being a bit rushed.

~Time Skip~

I sighed deeply and closed my last textbook. I pulled out my phone and checked the time. 5:27 pm. Dinners at six and it takes about half an hour to get home from the library since its in the opposite direction. Fuck. Even if I don't eat dinner I'm still expected to be home by then because that's when Jin expects us all to at least be thoughtful of each other and notice each other's existence. So basically everybody is forced to come eat dinner whether they eat or like it or not.

I quickly pack up all of my stuff and rush out the library while saying a quick 'goodbye' to the librarian. I didn't have the money to ride a public bus so I had to run home. I ran past many people who all shouted and glared at me. Every time I was forced to wait in order to cross a street I was impatiently tapping my foot.

Finally I had made it home. I open the door with my new spare key and gently close it. I know I'm late so I wait for screaming and shouting. When I hear nothing coming, I take slow steps to the living room where I can hear voices. Right as I get to the living room I hear someone say, " She's finally home. "

I wince as all the voices stop and everybody just stares at me. I slowly turn to them and give an awkward chuckle while I rub the back of my head. Jin glares at me and asks, " Where have you been? Your late by two hours. " I furrow my brows and pull out my phone and read the time.

I look back up at him and say, " What are you talking about its only 6:23. " He gives me a suspicious look and says, " What are you talking about? It's 8:23. " I give him a confused look and walk up to him to show him my phone. He looks at it and says, " Your phone isn't even at the right time. Did you change it so you can get away from dinner? "

I quickly shook my head and before I could protest he spoke again. " I expect you to be good and to at least get home on time so everybody can get along! Do you not appreciate our hard work for you? Do you take us for granted? All we ask of you is to at least get home on time so we can all get along like a wonderful family, but clearly you think otherwise. What is more important that you ignore your family? "

Tears welled up in my eyes. He could've at least let me explain. I was about to speak when Yoongi suddenly began shouting. " Jin Hyung don't you get it! She clearly doesn't care about us if whatever she's doing outside of here is more important. She clearly changed the time on her phone so she could go out and do whatever she wants! She takes us for granted! I don't understand why we even gave her a chance! I don't understand why we took her side when Yuri was telling the truth after all! She clearly doesn't give a damn and she's obviously faking everything! "

I shook my head and didn't notice how hard I was shaking until I heard a thump as my phone and backpack fell from my grasp. Jin's eyes widened and he reached out to steady me but I stepped backwards while shaking my head. I can't believe them.

I couldn't help the tears that had finally fell. I choked back a sob and said, " Fine...if that's how you see me then it's okay. I don't have to be here. I don't have to be your problem. Because that's all I am. I'm a problem. I thought that you guys could've given me a chance. I guess I was wrong. I was horribly wrong because your just like everybody else. Selfish and untrustworthy. You shouldn't go around and calling out the innocent because it only proves how horrible you are. "

I stumbled backwards and fell as their eyes widened when my sleeve went up showing all my cuts. The new ones and the old ones. I quickly stood up and began to walk backwards. They all quickly reacted and soon were holding out their hands. However, I reacted faster.

I began running down the hall and I slammed open the front door as multiple footsteps followed after me. I ran and ran as fast as I possibly could down the street. I don't even know where my feet were taking me. I heard them shouting my name but I ignored them every time.

I ran faster even though my body refused and wanted to stop and rest. I kept running and running even when I knew that I had lost them. I continued running until I could barely even catch my breath. I finally allowed myself to collapse on the floor even though I had no idea where I was.

I took deep breaths and looked up to the sky. I remembered what my parents had said. They said they were watching me. I closed my eyes and asked, " I thought that we had turned a new page? What happened? "