Cheated (Phan)

Chapter 6

The next day I went to my art lesson feeling pretty excited to tell Dan my news. He was a bit late to the lesson so I sat in my chair, bouncing around and fiddling madly with my pencil while I waited for him to arrive so I could tell him everything. When I spotted him I waved at him happily and made a sort of hurry up motion with my hand.

I told myself to wait until he was settled into his chair and had gotten everything he needed for this lesson out so he wouldn't get into trouble when the teacher started coming round. The second he was settled though, I grabbed his arm and pulled him a bit closer so I could tell him everything that had happened since we'd last talked.

"Dan Dan Dan you will never guess what happened and I'm so happy about it and it's about Jack and he's just so sweet but I need your advice and I'm kind of worried about it but at the same time I'm too happy to care and I don't think I'm making sense but oh well..."

I took a deep breath to continue talking and hopefully start making more sense but Dan saw an opportunity and got there before me.

"Ok, I have no idea what the hell you're saying, but I'm glad you're happy. As for the advice, I'm happy to try and give you some but you're going to need to explain it a bit more clearly."

His tone was a little teasing but for some reason I didn't quite believe the happy expression on his face. I pushed the feeling aside and started to formulate normal sentences in my head before I opened my mouth to give explaining another go.

"Right, ok. Basically, I decided to forgive Jack and be friends with him again, but then he started being so cute by taking me out on all these little dates like he used to when we first started dating, and we went round to his and it was so nice to see Kitty again - his sister - and the rest of his family. I'd been telling myself that he was pure evil and to never trust him again and I'd started to sort of block out all of the happy moments we had, and how considerate and kind and funny he used to be, and the little dates just sort of reminded me of why I fell for him in the first place. He hasn't changed at all really, he's still the exact same person who made me laugh when I felt down and who protected me from anyone who dared to even think about hurting me. Just because he was the one to hurt me this time doesn't mean all those things have changed, so doesn't he deserve a second chance?"

Dan didn't really react, just continued to stare intently down in his clasped hands on the desk. I plowed on with my monologue and hoped he was still paying attention and not off in his own little world of dreams.

"He asked me for another chance, and I know I said I don't trust him enough for that but the thing is, I kind of do. I do trust him, I do want to be with him again and I do still love him which makes it so much easier than it should be to forgive him when I still don't know if I should. Basically, please help me. I think I might say yes to getting back together."

He kept looking down at his hands and didn't say anything, and when he still hadn't said anything a few minutes later I sighed and went back to my drawing. I shaded the easier parts first and didn't really pay attention to what I was doing, my mind still on the topic of Jack.

When the lesson was almost over Dan finally turned a little and tapped me in the arm to get my attention.

"The whole thing with Jack - good for you. If being with him makes you happy then go for it, ok?"

I grinned at him and felt happier about it because I now had Dan's approval in a way. Despite the fact that I'd only known him for a few short weeks he was the person who'd been most involved in the breakup and so if he said it was a good thing to get back together with Jack then obviously it was the right decision wasn't it?

However, when he didn't smile back that happiness faded a little. Was everything alright with him? Usually he was a lot more cheerful - I hadn't ever seen him upset or less happy than usual.

"Are you ok? You seem kind of down."

Dan smiled a little and told me he was fine, just a little tired, and from the ridiculous times in the morning he texted me at I could believe that easily.

After the lesson was over we walked in the direction of the maths block together in a comfortable silence, but just before we went into our separate classrooms I felt the need to double check.

"Back in art, was that your honest opinion?"

"I gave you my honest opinion when we were at yours, but I did mean what I said earlier. If you think being with Jack will make you happy then you should go for it because you deserve to be happy."

He smiled quickly and walked into his class, leaving me feeling slightly confused as to what his advice was, but mostly anxious for lunch time. I was going to talk to Jack then, I'd decided that much, but I still had no idea what I was going to say to him.

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For once I'd spent the whole of the lesson glancing at the clock and dreading lunchtime instead of looking forward to it, and by the time I left the classroom I seriously doubted my knees were going to actually keep me upright.

I got to the lunch hall and found my friends seated at a table in a quiet corner, and when I saw Jack smiling and waving me over I suddenly relaxed. The decision was easy. I loved him. I'd forgiven him. I wanted to be with him.

I walked over with a huge grin pasted on my face and took Jack's hand, pulling on it a little and I asked him if he could come outside with me as I needed to talk to him. He agreed, so a few moments later we were stood outside the canteen and the nerves were back but for a different reason.

"So... I've kinda decided to give you a second chance. I'd like to start dating again, if you're up for it that is."

I addressed his chest for most of it, then quickly glanced up at his face to see his reaction. He had a really big smile on his face, one that stretched from ear to ear, and suddenly he was hugging me really tight and spinning me round and whispering how much he loved me in my ear. He set me down gently and kissed me softly, both hands cupping my face.

"Hell yes I wanna get back together, thank you so, so much for giving me another chance. You'll never know how much it means to me, and I just-"

He interrupted himself to kiss me again, not that I was complaining.

"Fuck, Phil, I just love you so much."

I smiled at him kind of shyly and hugged him close.

"I've missed you, Jack. Like a lot," I paused and enjoyed the hug a bit longer before speaking again, "but if you ever do it again I will take Emma up on her offer to kick you in the balls as revenge, deal?"

He laughed and agreed, tightening his arms around me again for a moment before pulling away to look at me properly, looking very sincere.

"I honestly don't have a clue why I did it in the first place and you have no idea how much I regret it. I'm never, ever doing that to you again. Promise."

"Ok good. But I'd like to just forget about the whole thing now; I may have forgiven you but I still don't like to be reminded. Move on?"

"Move on."

He leaned down to kiss me again and I felt truly happy, so clearly I'd made the right decision, but even as I deepened the kiss a little I couldn't help but think about what Dan had said he thought of this.

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If you read this Anni... Please don't kill me... Being alive is a nice feeling you see :P

Don't have much to say other than that I've had a pretty damn good two weeks and I hope you have too :)

Byeee :D