This summer I have decided to study abroad in Germany to learn, what else but, German. I only have one week left but it is so beautiful here I never want to leave.
I have made a lot of progress while I have been here. Although the past few days I've had some set backs. I have 2 main goals right now which are: 1) eating a lot less sugar and 2) stop forcing myself to finish whatever is in front of me when I am full.
I have been eating so much less sugar it is shocking. I'm still eating (but really drinking) quite a bit though. I have turned down ice cream a few times now just because i didn't feel like eating it. That's a big win for me. I've also had candy sitting in my room for weeks. I usually eat candy the day I get it. I am so proud of my self for the progress I am making. I have been drinking a lot of sugar though. I only drink filtered water but since I am in Germany I can't filter my water. I'm having a difficult time drinking water from the tap therefore I've been buying lots of tea and other sugary drinks. When I get home I'm sure I'll go back to drinking almost all water so I'm not so worried about that right now.
The second goal I am working towards has also been going really well. Usually I eat whatever is in front of me no matter how full I am but here I don't think I've even finished a meal. People say portion sizes are smaller outside of the US but don't believe them. Portions are the same size except for ice cream and soda which are smaller. There were a couple times where I was distracted talking to people and ate more than I needed. That is just part of learning how much food I need and how often.
The past few days have been a setback because my friends here are sick and haven't been in class and can't hangout. So I have been bored sitting in my room all day long for the past 3 days. The first 2 days I was bored and lonely and did start to eat a lot of food mostly sugar related. I did stop it before it became a full out binge. So today I really focused on staying busy and realizing that I'm not hungry I am just bored and therefore I don't need to eat. I'm glad I caught myself and I'm now trying to focus on doing what I have to to continue making progress.
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Teen FictionThis is my personal recovery. My relationship with food has been terrible for as long as I can remember. I started binging at 10 years old. Today I weigh 190. I am on a quest full of personal discovery to help combat my eating disorder. I am sharing...
