Anxiety
Sarah A. Kenney
Anxiety is a Monster.
It waits for me to sleep
It tries to devour me
With my memories
Every detail in my life
Like no decision is my own
Instead anxiety controls me.
I hope you will understand
How smiling won't take my pain away.
It will only mask
What you don't want to see.
Don't worry,
I won't ask you to have
Compassion for me.
The burden of my memories
Only makes you dislike me
I hope you understand
When I don't look you in the eye
It's me, not you.
I hope you understand
When I can't speak the words that I think
Is because the words feel like
they will kill me.
The steps I take in the morning
Hurt worse than most days
I feel that there are
weights around my feet,
And a noose around my neck,
Waiting for me to step off of the block
Under my feet.
Constant worry fills me
That if I say the wrong words
My life will crumble before me.
Some days I conquer my fears,
Live what the quotes of others
Advise me to do to live
A "happy" life.
Then,
Days like today,
Nights like last night
Tell me,
I am not Okay.
Corrupted Minds
Copyright ©2018 Sarah A. Kenney
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Corrupted Minds
Short Story"Corrupted Minds" is Michigan author Sarah A. Kenney's third chapbook released on Amazon! After receiving another rejection letter from her tenth magazine submission, Sarah had been longing to create a third chapbook and decided this was the perfec...
