A court of Pain and Misery

death on swift wings

I made my way to a cliff I had found as a human living in the spring court. It was concealed by the forest and I was positive I was the only one who knew about it. I stood at the top if the cliff looking down. It was about 20 feet to the ground. I sucked in a breath and summoned my wings, then without thinking I jumped off the cliff. I spread out my wings and I flew for a second anyway before I fell to the ground. I felt the pain as my healing powers ser my bones back into place and healed my cuts. I picked myself back up and tried again. I tried untill dawn and then made my way back to hell.

I made my way into the house and up to my room where I started a bath. As u sat in the bath a world if animals flew around me. Birds, snakes, wolves  all made of water. I watched my animals untill I realized the water had gotten cold. I wrapped a towel around myself tightly. I grabbed a fire red dress that reminded me of nesta. I didnt know why I had it but i decided I was going to bring out my inner revel and wear it. I braided my hair into a crown on my head and made my way down to the dining room. As I sat down in my seat to the right if tamlin i drew a sigh of relief. Ianthe it seemed had taken a hint and left.

"Wheres lucien?" I ask tamlin to rid the room of its silence. "He went ri check on the wall." Tamlin it seemed was not in a good mood today. I took this as my chance to leave so after stuffing my face with pastries I took off to the forest. I made my way to the cliff and tried to fly again. I finally hit the skies and realized I was surrounded by guards. An arrow hit one of my wings and I went down. I hit the ground and took a minute of reheating before getting back up to face no other than lucien. "Having a nice flight feyre" I turn around to face him my wings still on my back. I have no weapons so as u turn around i grip the mind of one of the guards. The one that shot me. "Would you like this back?" I asked as i squeezed his mind. He dropped to the ground his hands gripping his head. Lucien went wide eyed. "I looked the gaurd in the eyes as he whispered "no-no please" I watched the light leave his eyes as I shattered his mind. "So boys who next ?" I watched all the guards back far away from me as i stared them down. I began to walk away as lucien grabbed my arm. I shook him off as I whispered "better be able to keep a secret lucien" I didnt look back as I made my way to the manor.

I was bloody, bruised, and panting as I walked into the manor. Tamlin took one look at me and was at my side immediately. "I.. I was attacked" I managed to say as I cried into his chest. Lucien was making his way into the house a minute later and was just staring at me. I glared at him daring him to say something. He looked at tam and then tamlin exploded. He was in his best form in seconds. I backed away as a table went slamming into lucien. "TAMLIN! TAMLIN STOP" I rushed over to lucien and cut myself with a broken shard of the table and forced him to drink my blood. I looked up as tamlin slowly morphed into his face form. I backed away from tamlin knowing I messed up. I wasnt supposed to know about how to use my magic. I turned around and ran up the stairs. I locked my door behind me but heard banging a minute later. I let tamlin in and slowly backed away from the door. "Feyre what was that?!" I needed an excuse and fast "I....i when i was down there a girl morrigan taught me how to do that" tamlin looked me up and down as if he was looking for the truth but said very slowly "just dont do it again. Ok?" I looked him in the eye as I replied "I wont"

I made my way across the hall to luciens room only to find it empty. I made my way down the hall and stopped right out side tamlins study hearing voices on the inside."I'm telling you tam she playing you" I could sense the rush in his voice as if he expected me to walk in at any moment. "Lucien have you seen how fragile she is. She went through so much when that basgard took her mind and you have the nerve to say she was faking it" he was clearly pissed. "Tamlin my guards and I caught her flying yesterday she was shot out of the sky and killed the faerie who did it. Then she threatened me to the same fate if I told you" I took this as my chance to walk casually into the study as if I was looking for tamlin. I walked in and stopped dead in my tracks lucien and tamlin were both staring at me wide eyed. "Ok what did I miss? Is hybern here or something" I marked my tone in confusion as I stared lucien down. I whispered into his mind as I turned towards tamlin wrong move lucien. "Babe what's going on. Why are you both so silent" tamlin finally spoke "we were just uh taking about you." I made myself looked shocked "me? What were you talking about?" I made my way over to tamlin and placed a hand on his shoulder
He brushed it off and turned to me staring me dead in the eyes. "Feyre did you kill a gaurd today?" I made myself speak clearly "yes the one who attacked me." Tamlin continued "why did he attack you?" I turned towards lucien as I punched out "I find know ask lucien hes been after me since I escaped rhysland. He thinks I'm faking it" I began crying for show and quickly rushed out if the room as I heard the shouting begin.