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The Dream: Part One

Here we are. We've finally reached a chapter with some meat on its bones.

A crush story.

It happened when I was in seventh grade and 12 years old. As a seventh grader, I was just starting out in junior high(as if that's not awkward enough). I was also starting to play tennis(still do, btw).

The junior high that I went to offered a 1st period tennis class, so I took that instead of PE or athletics.

In that class I met my best friend, and a lot of my other really close friends. But I didn't know anyone in the class at the time, so that's where the awkwardness begins. Socializing.

There were a total of (I'm estimating here) 25 kids in the class. 13 were 7th graders, and 12 were 8th graders.
Let me tell you who I remember... (It's mostly girls cuz I didn't talk to boys lmao)

8th graders:
Jenna
Danielle(goes by DD)
Cindy
Brianna
Vanya
Davita

7th graders:
Megan(me)
Cheyenne
Kayla(remember her)
Le'ana(occasionally goes by Lee, REALLY remember her)
Karli

Like i said, we all had 1st period playing tennis together, so we became friends pretty quickly. Two of the girls, Kayla and Le'ana are lesbian and bi(accordingly). I am no where near homophobic, but up until i went to junior high i had never met anyone that was LGBT+(i have one gay uncle who lives in Illinois but that is it). I guess i just didn't realize that you can like the same gender.

That's not ME though. I couldn't possibly be attracted to girls, because I've liked guys before, right? (Current me: WRONG, BITCH) Nope, totally straighter than the pole your mom dances on;).

Le'ana in particular was very open and comfortable with her sexuality. And seeing her be so confident and honest, made me feel this twinge of something in my stomach. Not to follow stereotypes but, i just brushed it off as me being proud of my friend.

She was always inquiring about my sexuality with quick comments. For example, Cheyenne, Kayla, and I were talking about some topic that had nothing to do with sexuality. But Lee comes up and says, "What's Megan's sexuality?" In a completely innocent yet curious tone, like she just genuinely wanted to know.

At this point, i was pretty damn confused with my feelings. I was just trying to stick to one thing, You are straight, Megan. You like DICK, Megan. B-O-Y-S ONLY!! NOPE, no feelings for girls allowed.

Then, one night, the second to last week of school before Christmas break, it happened. I had a dream. A dream that revealed my true feelings.

And it started on a softball field. On top of playing tennis for my junior high, i also played softball. And guess who played in the same league as me? DING DING DING, you're correct! It was Le'ana.

*harp sounds*

I was on the softball field, standing in the center of the pitchers circle, i was alone. I did a complete 360 turn, looking at the graceful sunset, the green grass of the outfield, and the red dirt of the infield. When i was facing one of the dugouts again, she was there. A slight smirk on her face. Then she turned around and sat down on the bench in the dugout, patting the seat next to her.

I tried to say her name, but I couldn't speak. It wasn't scary, like you'd think it would be. I was just confused, a common state for me lately. Her smirk deepened. A familiar fluttering entered my chest, that was the scariest part of the dream. The way she made me feel.

I walked over to the dugout, and sat next to the girl. I could see the beautiful sunset behind her, my gaze drifted from the setting sun slowly. Then, i was looking into her eyes. My eyes were on her lips for a split second, the smirk was still there. I was blushing so hard. Her own eyes flicked to my own lips for a second as well. My heart was in my throat.

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I'm afraid that's all we have time for today, folks!

Come back in two days to read more ;D

I'm tired as fuck and I've done NOTHING, helpp.

Also, I don't know why the caps only worked on some of the i's lmao sorry bout that😂🤷🏻‍♀️

Tenga un buen dia <3

Later, Paladudes✌️