no matter where i go (im always gonna want you back) // calum hood fanfiction

two- today

     I yawn, my tan arms reaching out of my comforter and above my head, stretching towards the ceiling.

     It takes me a little while to wake up, and after a few minutes I run the sleepiness from my eyes and swing my bare legs over the side of my bed. I press the home button on my phone and see that it's 11:15 AM, and scroll through the notifications that popped up since last night.

     I slide the screen to respond to a text from Erin, my best friend.

     There's a party tonight at Braden's house. It starts at 9, I'll pick you up on the way? And wear something hot, I want to find you someone. You deserve it.

     I huff as I reply with a simple okay, I love you.

     It's been five months since Calum broke me. It's been one month since I've graduated high school. And it's been zero days since I've last thought about him. I know Erin means well when she talks about finding me someone again, but I can't forget about Calum. I hate him, but I love him more than anything.

     I try to shake my thoughts away as I rise out of bed. Without thinking my feet lead me into the bathroom built into my bedroom, and I study my face.

     Blowing the hair out of my eyes, I look at the baggy tee shirt clinging to my body and study my naked legs. My eyes look tired and sad, I remember that I cried myself to sleep last night again. My lips look puffy and longing for Calum's. My nose looks small but big at the same time, and my cheeks are freckled and pink.

     I turn away from the mirror, and flip the light switch off as I make my way out of the bathroom door. I know my mom's at work and my dad's been gone for years now, so I don't bother to put on pants.

     I make my way down the stairs, and walk through the corridor into the kitchen. For just two people living in one house, it's fairly big. I mean, we didn't know my dad was going to take off with my brother, so it's not like we knew to downsize for a family of two.

     I go to open the fridge, and read the note my mom left taped to it.

      I'll be home late tonight, I had to take the night shift as well. I love you, Mom.

     I put the note onto the counter behind me as I scan the fridge, knowing now why she had to take a night shift. We have no food, and my stomach growls for substance.

     Lately, I've been seeing less and less of my mom. And, of everyone. Erin's busy with plans for college, and she's really my only friend. Meanwhile, I haven't even looked at colleges yet. Whenever Erin was busy, I would be with Calum. Which was almost everyday. I feel my heart start to slow at the thought of him and try to busy myself by moving to the pantry.

     I'm so sick of pop-tarts, and granola bars, and cereal, but those are the only things we have. And, we're out of milk, so pop-tarts it is.

     I grab the packaged pastry and make my way back to the living room, the leather couch cold on my bare legs. I quickly grab a blanket, and the remote from the coffee table. I open the wrapper of my breakfast, and cover up with the throw blanket, while I begin to scroll through Netflix.

     I turn on The Office, I'm on season five episode four, and I begin to eat.

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     I wake up, and it takes a little bit to register where I am. Soon I know I'm on the couch in my living room, but I don't remember when I fell back asleep.

     I turn to face the kitchen, and look at the clock on the stove, it reads 7:30.

     I sigh, realizing I should probably get ready for the party, which I'm glad I woke up in time for.