Which One? (Nat & Alex Wolff)

Chapter 11

Alex looked sort of stunned that I was ignoring the kiss. A few minutes later, the chorus to "18" was playing on my phone, so that mean't someone was calling me. It was Chloe. I had to really take this one. I took my phone and I said "Sorry, I gotta take this." I say and I leave the room and shut the door. I answer the phone as I make it into my room and close the door.

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The Phonecall...

Taylor: Hello?

Chloe: Hey, I saw the livestream...

I'm so sorry!"

Taylor: Yeah, well Alex kissed me what am I supposed to do about, Marvin anyways now?! What if he was watching?! I'm freaking out here!!

Chloe: Don't freak out but I think Alex really likes you Tay, I mean it's Alex Wolff! You have been obsessing over these guys for years, so what's the issue if he likes you?

Taylor: Because I don't want a relationship to ruin anything. I mean I think Nat likes me too. So, what am, AHHHH. I'm just so confused!!!

Chloe: Calm down Tay, well just choose one!

Taylor: Which one?...Which one?! I can't make that kind of decision! Are you crazy?! What if I choose one then the other one gets mad and then they leave? Then I will be screwed. I will be alone and eating ice cream on my couch, covered with tears, watching NBB.

Chloe: You did that anyways even before you met them. Except it would just be worse.

Taylor: Chlo, I have no clue what I'm going to do...I'll talk to you later girl.

I say slowly and end the call.

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I full body plant hard onto my bed and sigh loudly. I flip over so I can breathe and I just lay there not knowing what to do. I keep saying "Which one?" to myself quietly as if I'm trying not to make myself go insane. I think of all of the pros and cons between them but they are brothers. How can they make me choose? I don't want to deal with this right now. I harshly wipe the tears dripping down my face away and go back to Nat & Alex's room to finish the live chat. I quietly open the door to their room and sit between them.

"Oh good, you're back!" Nat said looking at me and smiling. I regretted looking at him because my face was blotchy and puffy from crying. "Aw we have an upset child over here. Come here." He pulled me in for a nice hug and I really wanted to bawl my eyes out in his chest but I had to finish the livestream.

"Thanks Nat." I say as we let go out of the hug. I unlocked my phone and looked for a question under the hashtag. But, most of the tweets now were talking about shipping me and Alex and a screenshot from the kiss. I found a question that was specified for me and I read it out loud. "I found another question guys. It says, "Taylor, what is your favorite song?" Well my favorite song of all time is "How to Save a Life" by The Fray. I feel like it sends a very good message out there and it means a lot to me." I say.

"If only you could play it for us." Alex says obviously trying to start a conversation with me. I go over to the giant closet to reveal a piano sitting inside of it. I pull it by it's four wheels on the bottom and I move the bench out too. I shut the door to the closet and Nat positioned the camera so now it was on me. I started playing the intro to the song beautifully and I already was feeling lost into the song. This story actually goes perfectly to when one of my best friends attempted suicide and I was there by her side all night trying to convince her not to do it. But the next day she overdosed on pain killers and was rushed to the hospital. She luckily survived but she then attempted it again and unfortunately she succeeded...When you get a Phonecall that your best friend for all eternity has died by suicide it makes you regret. It makes you regret that maybe you weren't a good enough friend to her, or that you could have helped her more. She was such a happy person until she became really sad and depressed and I had no clue who she was anymore. That happy girl was gone and now she was forever...The verses were explaining the story and I think Nat and Alex were getting suspicious when I was replacing all of the "He"s with "She"s. I was already with tears by the chorus but luckily Nat and Alex joined in singing at the chorus and came over to the piano. Alex stood next to the piano with one hand on top of it and Nat sat next to me on the bench watching my fingers slide across the keys. I tried not to look up from them because I didn't want my online audience to see me cry. I'm pretty sure they could see the tears though. As I made my way through the song I felt my voice getting more powerful, more than it ever has. I finally got the courage to look up at Alex with the fear and pain of the past in the past. I just looked up him the entire time we sang through the chorus. I almost regretfully look back down at the keys once again as I finish playing the final notes and chords to the song. I sneak a glance at Nat who was already smiling at me and I smiled back with the the complete puffiness all around my face. He took my hand and held it tightly. I wiped the tears from my eyes and put the piano back into the closet. We set the laptop back up and we sat on the bed once again. I sat with my legs criss-crossed in the middle and the two guys sat next to me. We didn't do much for the next 20 minutes. We answered a few more questions. I talked about myself a little bit and how Nat and Alex even came to my house in the first place.

"Bye guys I hope you had fun with our...very interesting livestream." Nat said looking over at me and Alex.

"Bye guys. Thanks for putting up with me as a fellow Wolffie peace out yo!" I say and do a witty peace sign to the camera.

"Byeeeeeeeeeeeee" Alex continued until the camera was turned off.

"Well that was fun, we should do that again guys." I say kind of tiredly.

"Yeah we should." Alex said with a smirk,I rolled my eyes.

"I'm going to bed." I say immediately after with a tired and irritated tone in my voice. As I made it right of the doorway, I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Don't be so hard on Alex, you know that he didn't mean to." Nat said with a comforting smile. I look down regretfully at the floor.

"I just need to get things sorted out in my head." I say now confusing myself more and still looking at the floor. Nat grabs my chin gently so I will look up at him. Damn, he's so tall.

"Taylor, don't worry just try to not think about it for a while." Nat said still in that comforting tone.

"Nat, I'm not sure if I ca-" I say and then Nat kissed me on the cheek without me getting to finish my sentance.

"I'm sure you will figure it out Tay." he says as he strokes a section of my hair. Nat makes me feel so comfortable and it just makes me so happy. Before he could say goodnight and shut the door. I really wanted a hug so tightly wrapped my arms around him and he did the same to me. I felt the tears coming back and I let a few fall onto his shirt and I smiled.

"Goodnight Nat." I finally whisper into his chest. He lets go of the hug and holds my arms.

"Goodnight Tay. Sweet dreams." He says softly back and lets go and closes the door. I walk back to my room and slip on some sweatpants and a tanktop. I crashed right onto my bed and eventually fell into a deep slumber.

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I really hope you guys liked this chapter because I think this is my favorite one that I have written thus far. And no, I don't not have anyone that has passed away in my life from suicide but that song honestly just feels a lot for the message it sends! :) Also I was thinking after I finish this book (completely in Taylor's aka mine POV) I could make a sequel of this exact story but it would be in Nat & Alex's POV. What do you guys think of that idea? Leave your answers in the comments! And don't forget to vote!

Luv ya Wolffies!

-Tay