Dear Existence, It has come to my attention that I am not desired nor needed here. This truth may be, but I cannot help to notice that it is not my fault that I am alive, and it is not my fault that I may take up space in what you are, as it is you who created me, and it is you who will ultimately kill me. This is something I have no conflict with, however I am writing to you to inform you of a more important matter. On this early morning of December 4, 2017, I am declaring to you my first suicide in what will probably be a series.This is not in any way a declaration of death, and it is not a resignation or forfeit, but an evolution which I must undergo in order to face the challenges you put towards me. I have been beaten time and time again, and have been forced to take drastic measures to ensure my existence and a good condition of my mental health, the little that is left. I have cut, I have burned, I have toiled, I have lost, and I have suffered. However, I know this is not the permanent state of things, especially if I undergo what must be done to ensure my survival and the accomplishments of what I feel I was put here to do; gain strength in numbers by leading at least a small bit of humanity into a greater good, and not one based on delusion and chaos. I hereby invoke my right as a free being to evolve into a higher mental state and a state of being, and one that will conquer any challenge you face me with. This is necessary, unfortunately for you.
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Hope and Hysteria
Mystery / ThrillerThis is a story about someone who's completely and hopelessly trapped in their own head. They get up to some crazy antics. They realize finding the light in the world is hard. Witness someone's descent into misanthropy and nihilism. Enjoy.
