Moving Out and Moving Forward || Joeck

CHAPTER 19: YOU NEVER ...

After what seems like forever my beautiful "baby " daughter was here and born or let's just say was given to me by Maddie. 

  I  had called Jack  the following morning , so he could drive us back to Joe's house to see what on earth had happened to him. I  didn't even think once to call him and now I  was going to face him no matter what state he was in. With  Jack  carefully carrying Molly, he  insisted to carry her all the way up. " You didn't have too  Jack," I told him looking behind me "no, I wanted too"  he smiled back cooing at the baby.

"Joe!" I shouted out walking into the house. He appeared from the corner talking to his  vlog camera , he carried on when I walked sideways revealing Jack and Molly . " My beautiful girl is back now , let me sh..." Joe had stopped in the middle of his sentence staring right at Jack and the baby. Joe quickly put down the camera as Jack gave me Molly. "she's here , our baby daughter is finally here" Joe cried. I looked back to see Jack walking away as he  mouthed  "call me" making a phone sign with his hands  smiling towards me but somehow I  frowned back at him  as he shut the door behind him.

"Where were you when I was pushing?"  I laughed because it sounded weird to say it out loud  because I wasn't really pushing. Joe looked at me confused clearing his throat he began to explained what happened. " I knew you were at that music video with Jack so I gave you space so I didn't bother to text or call " I nodded for him to carry on " Nobody rang me throughout the night yes I was worried but still I got nothing " Joe looked away from my eyes holding our "baby " daughter in his hands. "no no no Jack was with me ( he wasn't really ) , shit he didn't call you, Joe, I'm so sorry" I was in bits, how could Jack not call Joe during the birth of Molly. I  mentally laughed at that thought because what really happened was that I ran outside the building where we were filming and went straight  to the hospital where Maddie was. I managed to persuade Jack that I need to be alone for this, which thankfully he agreed too, this is when things went really really fast. As Maddie  was giving birth , it felt as time with running out. 

As  Joe was still holding Molly  , I decided to get up and leave him to  spend some time with her. I  grabbed my phone and keys and walked out of the flat  heading to Jack's house to give him a piece of my mind, well at least that's what I thought that I was going to do, when Jack haven't even done anything wrong. 

I was about to knock on the door and shout  " How could you ?! "   when the door opened revealing a very good looking  Jack Maynard, Jack was wearing a grey t-shirt and black jogging bottoms leaning against the door frame looking into my eyes. We stood there looking at one another for a good 10 minutes till, Jack had walked back inside to let me in. Once again I find myself shouting at Jack more often than usual, here we go again with my acting skills.  I walked around the flat when Jack spoke first by saying "sorry but I wanted you to myself " he was now  bragging ,  knowing far too well that I  indeed didn't want him with me.   But of course, he only said that because he  wanted to be alone with me for the birth.  He had purposely said that in my face which  caused me to slap Jack in the face hard leaving a red hand print on his face.  I didn't know why I did that but in all fairness, Joe was the one I wanted. " You had your chance and you blew it !" I pushed Jack until he was up against a wall " you are the uncle of my daughter and that's how it's gonna be,  okay?"  "okay"  he mumbled . We were so close to each other , bodies touching " I love it when you get mad at me" Jack whispered in my ear making me shiver. As our bodies remain still , I felt Jack's hand grabbed my wrists squeezing harshly as a moan slipped out of my mouth. Jack's eyes locking with mine own, at first I thought he was going to kiss me, as the sexual connection was and will always there between us. But instead  at this point I didn't want Jack to let go no matter how hard he was squeezing my wrists , as this wasn't the first time he had done this. Jack had  an effect on me more than Joe did from the moment I first saw him it was like someone was telling me it was Jack that I should be with. However ,  it took everything  in me to push away from him  and to leave his house. Turns out that's what I did ,  I left Jack's house  crying my eyes out How dare he even say that he wanted me to myself when clearly I asked for someone to call Joe , however that's not the case. 

Walking the streets of London , I reflected on everything that had happened up  till the moment I decided to pretend to give birth. I had to carry on for my sake but was there another reason to this?