✨ 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ✨

Four ~ 4

[In the Bathroom]
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Chim Chim - "Gtg see you at gym 😊"
Me - "Bye 👋"
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I sigh ~
I was tried, very tired, my eyes were hard to keep open. I stay up late almost every single night, I know it's probably very bad for my health. But at this point, nothing matters. I groan in discomfort, "it's so hot in here" I whisper. I already took my sweater off but that barely changed anything. I felt like I was gonna faint, I was exhausted and dehydrated, I yearned for some water. I slowly reach for my back pack, that was hanging from the stall door. I hoped for some water, or anything, there was nothing. I sigh once again, "why?" I whined
I could just leave the stall and get some dirty school water but, I couldn't risk getting caught.
I pull my phone out and looked at the time, it was 11:00. "Great I say quietly"
Just 50 more minutes just 50.
I've been in here for so long I have a headache, I just wanted to walk out already but I couldn't. I stare at the ground for a moment, my legs started to fall asleep. Which made me uncomfortable. So I decided to sit on the discussing toilet. I wasn't going to stand the whole time. I wouldn't survive besides I have gym next. Which I don't look forward to, Jungkook was going to be there. Not that I don't want him there, I'm just probably going to embarrass myself. Thinking of him just makes my heart go crazy. He's very good at sports, amazing actually. He wins all the time, he's good at running, baseball, basketball, basically all sports. I can't compare to him, I'm terrible at sports or anything athletic. I sweat way to much and most the time I just sit on the bench and watch everyone play. I liked it that way, but that's why I'm failing. My gym teacher says "I need to participate more". I honestly don't agree with him, every time I play, everyone looks at me in disgust and hatred. Everyone hates me and that's a fact. I sigh, out of boredom, I check my phone again, 11:10. Barely any time has pasted, I look at my phones percentage 55%. "Why?" I say, I put my phone in my backpack. I can't waste anymore battery, I need my phone later. I just sit there and stare, just thinking about life and everything in general. How everyone wants me dead already. They all want me gone, I agree with them honestly. I don't wanna be here anymore. I was a disappointment, hideous, no talent at all, weak, and just a disgrace to everyone. I just wanted to die already.
[Time skip by 20 Minutes]
I checked the time again
11:30 ~
20 more minutes to go
I was honestly very nervous I haven't gone to gym in 3 days. Like anyone cares if I'm there or not. They were probably very happy, but that's going to change once I come. I couldn't take being in this stall anymore, I needed some fresh air. Like there way any but something different from breathing the same air for an 1 hour already. I walk out and moved quickly and quietly. I look at myself in the dirty mirror, "Ugly" I thought. I wash my hands with warm water, it stings a bit due to the cuts I have. I wash my face, it was relaxing, I look at myself. Once again, bags under my eyes, my cheeks red, my lips were cracked and I needed chapstick desperately. I pull my hair back, with my wet hands. Revealing my face. "Ugh" I say my hair looks decent I guess. I was also very thirsty, with no other option I cupped my hands together. And filled them with cold water and drank it. I felt the cold water go down my dry throat. I felt way better, I drank a bit more. And walked back to the stall. I stretched a bit, hearing my arms crack. I started gathering my things, 15 minutes I thought then I can finally leave, *buzz buzz*.
I felt my phone go off, I looked at the message.
It was from my father, I groaned.
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Dad - "Im not going to be here this afternoon or tomorrow, the house better be cleaned once I return"
Me - "Yes" I say in return
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I was surprised
He would usually curse at me or something but this time he was kind of nice. Something must've happened, I thought. If he's being this  nice.
I looked at my phone once again 5 minutes left.
I felt my hands getting sweaty, I was anxious and nervous. I didn't want to go, I took a deep breath trying to calm down. I put my sweater back on and felt better. I stare at my phone, watching the time go by.
[Ring Ring Ring] The Bell went off
It's time to go ~
I hear footsteps from outside the bathroom, I quickly walk into a crowd of people. I felt my anxiety coming, I hated large crowds of people, but I finally made it to the gym. My gym teacher stares at me, I just walk past him and And act like I didn't see him. I walk straight Into the locker room. I smile once I see Jimin waiting for me. "Tae" he says happily
"H-hi" I say, he grabs my arm and takes me to our corner where we usually change. Jimin  tries his best to cover me. "You change first ok"
"Yes I know, thank you" he knows I'm very insecure about my body. I quickly change into some long sleeves and sweatpants. "Tae, it's going to be hot, don't you have shorts or something" he asks worried
"N-no,  I'll be fine" Jimin looks at me very concerned "Are you sure" "Y-yes" I say
"Hmmm Fine" he responds, I know he's worried, but I shrug it off.
Once we're done changing ~
We held out to the gym, which I see the one and only Jungkook. I quickly look at something else before he sees me, being a creep.
Me and Jimin sit down at the bleachers, I felt very sick and extremely hot. But I have to stay awake at all costs.

[Authors Note ~]
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