✨ 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ✨

Fourteen ~ 14

[ Taehyung's POV ]

I grip onto the door handle and trying not to fall.. my body feeling like it would collapse any moment now, I kept walking slowly and slowly. Holding onto the railings I walk downstairs, I eventually make it and check the time 3:54.
Dad will come home late again..., I walk over to the kitchen there's no food just beer. I look around in the cabinets and see old cookies and half a box of pasta. I'm not sure if I should make it or not, but it looks like it's been here awhile so why not? I grab the box and go over to the stove, i knew I had to eat even though I felt like throwing up. I go under the kitchen sink and grab a pot, it looked decently clean. So I just go with it, next I fill it up with water and place it on the stove. While I wait I look around my house, I've lived here so for almost my entire life... with my mother and father of course. But it's no longer like that, she's gone now and it's all my fault.. I quickly snap out of my thoughts, the water on the highest setting steam leaving the dingy pot. I go poor the hard pasta into the pot and slowly mix it, watching all the different varieties of colors. I wait a bit longer for it to cook.. the pain was still getting to me I needed something to numb it. I could drink some beer but, I'm afraid honestly. I've seen how my father acts when he's drunk and I don't want to be like him. I doubt I'll have any children in life, but in general I would never hurt someone like he's hurt me. I keep on debating if I should drink any or not, even a little bit can change you. More steam leaves the pot and the pasta was done! I grab a small bowl and place it inside, I went into the living room and turned the T.V on. Not really sure what to watch or do...
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[ Jungkook's POV ]

Finally it's over I thought, I head over to my bus exhausted. Today was decent I guess everyone was on my ass about liking. Jimin I knew Yoongi liked him to... they seem like a better couple honestly. I'm so tempted to call Jimin asking him why he didn't attend school. But I don't want to bother him he's probably still pressed about Taehyung. Do I like him?..
He is beautiful, very beautiful, but I doubt he likes me. I shouldn't think like that, I'm not sure anymore..., but Jimin makes it pretty obvious how much he cares for him. But he doesn't even respond or calls him back which pisses me off. Most people hate him but Jimin doesn't even think about that. Maybe I should give him a try.., that project was due awhile go. And we both failed math class.
I chuckled a bit thinking about it
Thinking about him
Maybe I should stop going after Jimin...
and go for Taehyung
I press my head against the window, I stare outside, passing people, apartments and houses. I'm almost home
I can't wait to take a nap honestly
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath I needed to get my feeling straight. Before I do something stupid, I look forward. I'm almost home, I'm so close.
My eyes shot open once the bus stoped, I'm here i stand up and start walking out.
I run, I run home.. I felt heart broken.. lonely
Nobody really likes...
I keep on running and make it to my house, I walk up the steps and walk threw the door.
"Hello sweetie, how was school?" My mother asks
"It was great"
"You don't seem great, you look tired.."
"Yea..umm I'm going to take a nap, excuse me please"
My mother hums in response...
that was a bit awkward
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[ Taehyung's POV ]
I ate half of the pasta it wasn't that good, but that it's better than nothing. I look up at the clock, 4:26 Jimin is out of school already. I shouldn't call him, I've bothered him enough he's fine with out me. I turn the T.V off and go into the kitchen to wash my bowl. I keep eyeing the fridge and that beer, how much it would coup with this pain. "How much it will help" I grabbed a cup and a can of beer. Half of a cup won't kill me so... fuck it. I poured the Golden liquid into my cup ... my hand started trembling a bit. I looked at it for a few minutes, it's now or never. I start drinking it, my face expression changed in a matter of seconds. It tasted bitter, "how can people drink so much of this??" But ignoring the taste and finish half the cup, I was a bit proud of myself. For actually doing that and now hoped the pain would leave... soon.
I decided to drink the whole can, I washed my cup and return back to my room.
I felt a bit dizzy and everything seemed
Fuzzy, I started laughing a little bit. I'm not really sure what's so funny but it seemed
Like my entire room was shaking. I looked up at my cracked ceiling, I just starred at it I don't know for how long but I did. Everything was moving and I was scared, I didn't want to move thinking it will make things worse...
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[ Jungkook's POV ]
I was laying on my bed thinking.. about many things. School, my feelings, friends and especially Taehyung. If I really don't go for Jimin then will I really fall in love with him, could I really love him. Will he do the same in return...? I'm confused and depressed right now I've been rejected many times before. I've hooked up with sluts .. just for a escape for all the rejections. Just to feel love even if it's for a short amount of time..
could I really do that with him....?
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[ Authors Note ~ ]
ᕕ( ՞ ᗜ ՞ )ᕗ This chapter was really short forgive me about that 😭💞
🌻 please ignore any mistakes 🌻
(=^-ω-^=) thank you to everyone that has been reading my trash story >3 💞💕💗💘💝💓
I love you all >3 💓💖💝💕💗💞💞🤧💖💗
Bye >3 🌻💞💖☺️💝
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