✨ 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ✨

Thirty Three ~ 33

[ Yoongi's Pov ]

we leave the hospital, I was so sleepy. it was cold and gray out, until I felt someone's hands intertwine with mine.

I look over, to Hobi smiling bright. My body started to burn, he really made this cold night something beautiful.

"You okay Yoongi?"

I just simply nod, to embarrassed to look him in the eyes..

even though I feel like this, I still feel empty. even though I have him,, is he really enough to drive away the poison in my head.

the constant reminder that everything will be so much better if I was just gone. That my death will truly make things better??

I was trap with these thoughts.

they devour me every single day, I was no longer interested with life. no longer wanted to eat or sleep.

just nothing.

Hobi squeezes my thin hands,, which terrified me.. I started to panic a bit,, was he angry with me?? Did I mess up again??

"Yoongi baby,, you look so exhausted." He seemed sad, which made my heart break.

"N-no I'm good." I said

barely getting a word out,, the fact that i stuttered made things even worse.

I hope I convinced him..

We finally reach our apartment,, "Jin do you mind sleeping on the couch??" hobi asked

"It's not a problem,, thank you guys."

he hugged Hobi tightly and smiled at me.

"Do you guys mind if I take another shower..??"

"No, go ahead."  I said

"I'll get you some more clothes." Hobi said

"thanks"

I smiled slightly, at my boyfriends gesture. He really is precious.

I just walked to our shared bedroom,, I slowly started to undress myself. hobi going threw his dresser,, my sweater slipped off my body.

I'm so pale I thought.

I was wearing a black shirt and I changed into some basketball shorts.

I buried myself in the soft blankets we owned,, the really fluffy ones.

I felt so relaxed,, my body wasn't so tensed or stressed.

A good 10 minutes later, I heard the water running. and my love changing his clothes,, I didn't want to look because I was too scared.

he has a lot more muscle than me..

plus his body is more attractive,, god I'm so ugly..

Soon I felt strong arms wrap around me,, my body went cold..

I gently pulled his hand up to my lips and kissed it gently, and wrapped my arm around his.

I wasn't really "romantic",, plus that was really weak..