Change [✔️Completed ] Michaeng

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Chaeyoung's POV

I plopped myself on my bed and sighed deeply. I pick my phone from my pocket, plug in the headset and play music with it. I play it loudly that I feel my ears are gonna burst out bleeding later. But, I don't care. Seeing Mina in pain, hurts me more. I shut my eyes and put my right arms to cover my eyes.

Nothing can disturb me more than this. Even that creepy stalker of me, the memories of the incident on lunchbreak really hurts me. I should have protected her. Why I can't protect her. I feel someone shaking my body. I put down my arm and open my eyes. It's mom. She's standing beside me and looking at me worried. I plug off one side of my headset and stare at my mom. Now, I can hear her.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

I just look at her and turn my head to the side.

"Nothing, mom."

Mom makes herself sit on the edge of my bed while caressing my head.

"You know, you can tell me, right?"

I turn my head again toward her direction and stare at her. I get up from my position and hug her. I wrapped my arms around her neck and hug her tightly.

"It's okay, it's okay."

"Mom"

"Hm?"

"How do you feel when you can't protect me?"

I know she's shocked by my question. She's mute for a bit and sighed deeply.

"Frustrated, sad, angry.. So much emotions that I can felt when I can't protect you, cub."

"Why?"

"Because I love you. I love you so much my daughter that it feels really hurt when I see you hurt. I'm sorry that you have to suffer your disease because I can't protect you.."

Mom starts sniffing and I regret asking her about this.

"Mom, hey. I'm the one who need console right now."

I smile at her and wipes her tears.

"I'm okay, mom. Don't blame yourself. It's my destiny. Beside, your cooking are much more delicious than food from any other restaurants!"

I laugh for calming the tension a little bit.

"So, don't worry about me. It's not your fault, okay?"

I hug her again and we stay like that for about a minute.

"So, why are you asking me that?"

"I've broke my promise. I told that person that I will protect her, but I can't."

"It's Mina, right?"

I just nod. There's no point for denying either. I do know that I like her.

"How do you feel?"

"Same like you. Frustrated, sad, angry.."

"Aww, my cub is grown already!"

She rubs my head roughly that my hair become really messy.

"Aahh, mom! What are you doing!"

"Remember why I feel that way when I can't protect you? It's the same." she smiles at me and leave me alone in my bedroom hanging.

I keep thinking about what she said earlier. I recall all of the memories and lay my body on my bed using both of my arms for being a pillow. When I remember what she said to me, I widen my eyes and sit up straightly.

Do I love her?

...

Morning came, I check my phone. Still, there's no message. Mina doesn't even bother to text me. Maybe she's mad. I groaned and take my towel to take a shower. It's 6.45 am.

I go to the kitchen and sit on the table putting aside my bagpack on the chair beside me. The front door opened. It must be Seulgi.

"Good morning! Eomma! Chaeyoung-a!"

"Oh, Seulgi-ya! Sit have breakfast with us!"

"Yes, eomma."

She sits beside me and throw my bag to the living room. This kid. She highfives me and we wait for our food.

"Whats up, bear."

"Eomma, let me help you!" Seulgi stands up and help my mom carry the dishes to the table.

"Omo, thank you, Seulgi-ya."

Then we eat the breakfast together.

...

Still got no message from Mina. Maybe she's just forget and the girls are stop bullying her. It may be a good news. I open my locker and found letters. It way more than usually. There so many letters. So many of them that it starts to fall one by one.

"Cub, it seems like you're being more popular after the incident from yesterday."

I just shrugged it off. I pick them all up and going to throw it in the trash can but Seulgi stops me.

"What are you doing?"

"Throwing this?"

"What? You never throw their letters before. You love to read them!"

"Well, now I hate it."

I throw it and check on my phone. Still, there's no message from her. I sighed. We walk to our class and have a sit on our usual sit. Moonbyul hasn't come yet. Maybe she ups late. But I see her talking in front the class with a girl. They are intertwining their hands!

I glance at Seulgi and she looks at me with the same expression as mine. Surprised.

"Who is she?"

"Kim Yong Sun."

I wide my eyes. They must be dating. Then, Moonbyul came in still with her wide smile and nose scrunched up. We stare at her since in front of the class and sit in front of us. She turns around to us.

"Guys! I have something to tell you! Oh my god, I can't believe this is happening to me!"

"We know." we said it in the same time.

"Aah, what is this? You guys are no jam."

We just laugh at her and let her continue her story. My bunny is really in love. Her eyes are full of flower it's sparkling.

"So, byul-a. How do you feel if you can't protect Yong Sun?" I asked her.

"Angry, ofcourse! But I never failed to protect her so I won't feel that way." she winks at me.

"Aish, you and your sweet mouth!" I throw my pencil at her and she just laughs at me.

...

It's finally lunchbreak. I take my lunchbox with me and went to cafetaria with Seulgi and Moonbyul. We sit at the vacant seat and as usual they went to order their foods. I look around to find Mina and found her sits behind me rather far away with her friends. She saw me. I smile and wave at her.

But, she just looks away and keep eating her food. What is this?