Change [✔️Completed ] Michaeng

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We have our lunch on the historical bench near the park. We've discussed many things, joking about everything, and teasing each other. It's really a blessing I can be with someone like her. She understood my circumstances and never asked me why I got my episode last night. I'd be glad if I can tell her about myself. So, I decided to told her why I became like this.

"Mina," I put down my chopstick and stared at her. She hummed and turn her head to me.

"I have something to tell you." I fidgeting my fingers as the nervous feeling came all the way up to my mouth that I feel like puking. I'm not ready at all. But, I really wanted to tell her what happened with me. As all of my anxious ate me up, one touch from her crashed all my anxious. She pulled my head toward her chest and caressed it slowly. I can hear her calm breathing but her heart beat was beating like a racing car. If this beating's causes was me, how I glad I am because I have this much effect to her.

"You don't have to tell me. Besides, I already knew about it. I'm sorry, I asked about it to Seulgi without your permission." I can hear that her voice is getting a little bit crack and she sniffed a little. She knew it. I shook my head telling her that it is okay. I keep my head on her chest and admiring the beautiful view in front of us with the bit of the wind, the smell of the soil, and the sound of students bickering to each other. Until a figure stood in front of us panting.

"We don't have to track him anymore." Seulgi said with that cute smile on her face. I retracted my head from Mina's chest and looked at her confused.

"He's really nice, Chaeyoung-a. If he's the stalker, he would ask anything about you. But, he only asked how I am, what I like, what I dislike.." she told me everything with the sparkles on her eyes.

"Moreover, we sang together. Oh my god, you have to hear him singing. His voice is angel-like!" she said squealing on her place clapping her hands like a seagull.

"Are you sure?" I asked tried to make ourselves clear.

"10000% sure." she said it proudly while clicking her fingers.

"But still, don't be too close to him. We don't know anything yet." Mina gets up from her sit and approach Seulgi putting her hand on Seulgi's shoulder. I agree with Mina, we don't know anything yet to assume that he's safe. We have to be cautious about this. The next thing Seulgi did surprised Mina even me. She throwed her shoulder so that Mina's hand fell down from her shoulder and she clicked her tounge.

"Why don't you guys believe me? He's nice! Finally I got someone who really listening to me and how difficult this life is for me. He listened to me!" She snapped out and shouted. The last sentence is bothering me so much though. Then, what am I? What am I and Moonbyul all this time for her?

"What did you say? He's the only one who wanted to listen to your story? Then, what we are, Seulgi!? Am I and Moonbyul mean nothing to you that you don't want to share it with us!?" I didn't realizr it that I've shouting too. I can feel Mina is standing beside me holding my palm while squeezing it a bit try to make me calm.

"You guys never ask about it." Seulgi then walked away from us and gone to God know where. I made a fist from my palm and try to suppress my anger. But, I can't hold it. I never knew Seulgi think of us like that.

"AAH!" I shouted and kicked the ground. Mina immediately held my arms and caressed it slowly.

"Sorry" I said whispering to her and lean my head on her shoulder.

"Let's give Seulgi some time, okay? She just upset." she said it in a calming tone that made me calmer than ever. I nodded my head on her shoulder.

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The school's end. I need to talk with Seulgi. This whole class I thought about how to apologize to her about not being care as bestfriend and how I snapped at her before at lunchbreak. I packed all my books quickly and about to called her but she stormed off already from the class. Moonbyul as the one who know nothing about this, she went to me with the obvious confused expression with her.

"What's with you guys" she said slinging her bagpack to her shoulder.

"Small incident." I sighed and sit again on my seat. She sit beside me and stared at me like there's no tomorrow. I'm afraid, if I told her, she would disappointed on herself and shut herself down like what I did just now. But, bestfriend won't hide anything. Right?

I told her everything started from how she with Baekhyun being so close than ever and she said that he's nice blah blah blah until where she said that we didn't care about her. I can't heard any response from her. I turned my head toward her direction and saw she stared at the table only with her blank face. That's why I hesitated to told her from the start.

"Byul-a" a girl's voice can be heard from the in front of our class. I think it's a girl named Yong Sun. Moonbyul's girlfriend? Moonbyul lifted her head looked at Yong Sun, and smiled weakly.

"Sunshine." she said with her flirty tone but together along with the negative tone on her voice.

"Chaeyoung-a, I'll be back first." she gets up and patted my shoulder smiling, "Just think that she's upset. Okay?" I nodded my head and she went to Yong Sun. I think Yong Sun realize something happened to her girlfriend as Moonbyul in front of her, she asked her, "What's wrong?" then went out of the class.

I laid my head on the table and sighed again. I never knew Seulgi think of us like that. I stare at the window and the yellow sun slowly turned into the orange sun. The bright and warm place slowly turned into dim and cold place. Just how my heart now. Dim and cold. Seulgi is really important person in my life. She helped me whenever I need her but now I just realized how bad I am for her. I didn't deserve her. She's too perfect for the fool people like me. The dim and cold place in my heart suddenly became brighter and warmer as someone laid her head on the table beside me and stared at me. I smiled and she showed me her killer gummy smile. We just stared at each other without breaking our eye contact. I keep staring at her eyes, to her moles, nose, eyebrows, hairs and lastly her lips. I bring my left hand and caressed her cheek slowly.

"Why don't you go home?" she said still with her head on the table and my hand caressing her cheek.

"Want to look at the beautiful view in front of me." I said smiling and tucked a few strainds of her behind her ear.

"Me?" gummy smile with excited eyes on hers.

"No, behind you." I stucked out my tounge out at her and laughed my ass off. She pouted and turn her head away from me.

"Myoui-nim, are you mad?" I said poking her waist. She shrugged me off. I pulled my chair closer to her and made her sit up but still have her back on me. I slid my arms on her waist and buried my face on her back.

"Minari.. I'm sorry but, can we stay like this for a moment?" I can hear my voice cracking a bit. She hold my arms and nodded her head.