" Toph... I remember what my mom always told me, before leaving. Besides the stories about the Sun and the Ocean.
She told that one day, I'll find a girl that will be able to make me smile, and laugh, and act differently when I am around her... She told me this girl was about to be the sunshine of my life, and that gaining her love won't be that easy. And above all, she told me that no matter who I end up with, I'll always be her Special Boy, and she'll certainly love the girl in Question.
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I found her years ago... And I am about to marry her..."
That's a good thing the lighthouse wasn't entirely made of earth, because my feelings would've destroyed it entirely... My heart was shattered, destroyed, burned into ashes. I began to sob like no one ever did, I fell on my knees and began to yell hysterically. I wasn't even listening to what he was saying anymore. He was the monster all over again. And I felt like seeing me cry would strengthen him and make him laugh. The more I was crying the more hurtful the pain was getting.
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" Toph please ! Listen to me ! Listen to me, I beg you... It is really hard to say that.. But I also felt like there was something between us... Very long ago.. But then you closed yourself into this big scallop! It was too hard for me to get into it ! So I gave up, and kept on seeing you as a good friend. A friend with whom I've shared a lot of moments and adventures, a friend who saved my life and who I've saved her life many times !
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But since last night I see things so differently ! You are not my sunshine Toph, you are my rock. The only person on who I can always count, and who will always understand me better... I know the real you, and you know the real me... I had never told anyone about my mother, even to Katara ! It hurts me a lot to talk about her, except with you ! You have this... This special light into you that makes me different all of a sudden every time I see you !
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But the thing is, another girl opened her heart to me long before you, and now, my heart is sealed with hers... Believe me Toph, I wish I could recreate the Universe so I could meet you, and break this scallop sooner !
I could've fallen for you, your personality, your feelings, your frail heart, and your sensitivity much earlier... I wish I could forget about Suki, and make you happy by giving you all my love...
But... But I can't... It's like asking you to give up on your earthbending.
But never forget, that asking me to give up on you, would be like asking me to give up on my own life. I care about you Toph, a lot. A lot more now, and I don't want you to do something stupid because of me...
Because I know... I am stupid ! I am a dumb and stupid non bender with a stupid boomerang and nothing else to do !
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I wish I could've spared you so much pain and tears! I wish I never saw the light to make the both if you suffer, only because of me ! I never wanted to break anyone's heart !
I am guilty, and stupid, you almost lost your life because of me ! What is wrong with me ?! Why am I the mess maker ?! I am so sorry Toph.. I never meant to hurt you like this, believe me... I wish we could've avoided so much problems, and I never came to the world !!"
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He adopted the same position as mine while crying tears and sobbing... I understood everything he said, very easily ! I really got it ! But now that he was blaming himself, I felt like the roles were switched : I was hurting him and making him cry...
But then, I stood up...
I stared at him, as he was crying on the ground... I was listening to his heartbreaking words. Finally, the roles were really switched, and he was getting the pain I went through.
He was crying the tears I've been crying for years, he was feeling the blade he stabbed into my heart.
And I felt like watching him cry was making the blade dig even deeper into his heart...
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I was just standing here listening to his sobs and complains..
But this moment didn't last long... I kneeled to embrace him and said :
" Sokka please ! Don't began to cry! Listen... I am not mad ! I will never be mad at you for loving someone else than me ! How could anyone be mad because of love?! How could anyone forbid someone else to fall in love ? I get it : you're about about to start a happy new life with your wife, and I'm on your way. But I'll never be on our way ever again ! I promise ! I get it Sokka, and I am really glad for you now !
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Please, stop crying, it's not your fault at all !"
I wish these words could've comforted him, I wish these lies could dry his tears !
Of course I was lying... I could never be happy about them, but I really didn't want to see him cry...
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Although these were lies, this moment was like a relief to me. Finally, the truth was told, and the tension disappeared. Everything that needed to be said, went out. We knew everything about each other, what we've always felt, and what we have always thought. So during the rest of the evening, we were into each others' arms, comforting each other, and whispering great stories.. The stories of how a young Dreamer, and a strong earthbender, could've ended up together, but were sadly separated by destiny.
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And somehow, as we were talking and wondering about this, I felt like we were convincing each other that Suki had always been on our way to our Love... But that was just an illusion of mine. We spent the greatest night on top of that LightHouse, rocked by the waves, when he spotted the moon and decided it was time for us to leave. While carrying me down the stairs, not a word had been told. This beautiful silence was enough to make me smile. Once at the bottom, I caressed the lighthouse, like I wanted to say goodbye to it...
An unforgettable place that will stay carved into my heart. I whispered into my heartbreaker's ear : " I will never forget this.. Never.. I want it to be marked for ever...
- Toph, if I ever forget about these past few days, make me a dead man.
- Haha, I sure will ! But wait.. There's something written in here. Or rather carved ! I can feel it. What does it say ? "
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He gently put me down, took me by the shoulder, and I could hear him rubbing the sand and dust from the letters. After reading it, he said :
" Oh, that's just the name of the LightHouse, he answered.
- Really ? What's it's name ?
- Su Yin. It's name is Su Yin.
- Su Yin... That is one beautiful name..."
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A Frail Love
FanfictionToph Beifong is hurt, heartbroken, and mostly left aside... The worst part of being such a rough time is seeing her Soulmate being engaged to someone else... Sokka's diamond eyes were shining only for Suki, whereas Toph's grey eyes were only crying...