The Silence Within

Chapter 47

Lola swung her Porsche Macan into the driveway next to her Mercedes. She pulled to halt, switched off the engine and proceeded to get down. The chilling air of the night slapped her face, whipping her hair back. It licked her skin causing her to shiver a bit. She regretted outing on a mini denim skirt, tank top and some pretty sneakers from Puma.

She strolled into the foyer, surprised the light was switched off. Is Joshua not home? Slightly curious, she headed into the living room after switching on the light. In the living room, the lights were dimmed and the television was switched on with its volume low. Joshua laid on the three seater, his head on the armrest, one hand under his head and one of his legs bent up at his knee. The corners of her lips arched up. She kept her bag on a chair and headed to him.

"Hey" she greeted, settling on the empty space beside him.

"How was your outing?" he asked, his voice throaty.

"Great" she smiled, looking down at his face. His deep eyes lacked the sparkle or anger she had seen in them in the morning. His face was gloomy, expression forlorn. She found herself becoming worried. "Is something wrong?" she questioned bending a bit to lay a hand on his chest.

"Not really?"

"Are you sure?" she leaned in, one of her hands reaching up to caress his head, a gesture he found relaxing. Joshua eyelashes came down. He exhaled, inhaled, his breathing slow and warm. Lola's eyes, warm brown with a lot of golden rays in the iris, gazed at him with worry. She saw his Adam apple bob as he swallowed. Sympathy drove its way into her heart, allowing her to become more worried about him. "Hey" she husked out, her feminine fragrance permeating the air around them. Joshua had one urge at the moment, to hold her close and bury his face into her neck to inhale and exhale until that sweet scent intoxicates him. "You seem down"

He opened his eyes. Smoky eyes, muted and soft met her eyes. "I am alright"

"So you won't tell me anything" the look in her eyes altered to a peeved one.

With a scowl over her desirable lips, she pulled away. Before she could leave, he bound his hand around her waist to push her back into him. Lola gasped while Joshua enjoyed the way her lips parted with shock, need for her coursing through him. Slowly, a smile appeared on his face. His eyes, framed with thick eyelashes appeared darker, more enticing in the dim light. The smoky eyes were sultry.

"I am just down" he husked out, his hand caressing her side. She felt the fluid movement of desire in her body. Lola shivered. She rested both hands on him to play with the button of his polo shirt.

"That night I had a nightmare and we were at the balcony, your eyes were full of rage and malice. I remember asking you why there were there and today, what I see in your eyes is grief. What's wrong Joshua?" her voice was soft, pleading and low for only him to hear.

She has never had a man sit right next to her and feel so sad. Lolu was not the kind to tell his problems. When he does, she tries to sympathise with him but she was never good at it. Giving sympathy to a female friend was different but when it comes to male friends, she was terrible at it. With Joshua, it felt different. What can she do to create a smile on that face, at least a smile that will reach those eyes?

Joshua has his own pain. She noticed for the second time. He has kept something hidden. She wanted to know, wanted him to share his problem and for the first time in her entire life, someone's problem felt like hers. We all have secrets we keep hidden, secrets we are scared to expose, secrets nobody see or know. You are not the only one life have dealt with Lola. You have to know that we all have pain in here. His words played in her head.

She leaned closer until their faces were just inches apart. One of her fine hands rubbed his tattooed arm, a finger caressing the chain tattoo on his arm. Her heart stuttered in her chest causing it to speed at a momentum above normal. What she was about to do, she was not sure if it would help. She took his lower lip into her mouth, caressed until he kissed her back, sucked in a slow and fiery way before she pulled away.