Secrets

Playing with Fire

Marcus:

When I opened her text I was shocked yet happy at the same time. Something came alive within me, something I had never felt before I didn't want to lose this feeling. What is she doing to me? What am I doing? This is a dangerous game...how could I want someone who is already taken? I don't think that or anything else would stop me at this point. She was inside my head and breaking my walls down quickly. I was a reserved man who kept to myself mostly in the media I was known as a womanizer but after losing my mother last year and not having the greatest relationship with my father I calmed down quite a bit, I started seeing Sara she was an international model so I only saw her when she was in town which worked for me. Crista was new she made me feel things I never thought I was capable of feeling. Her being married was a complication but it did not stop these feelings that were overwhelming me. I closed my eyes and drifted off into sleep...

I knew sneaking out was wrong and Lamar was going to be more furious than he already was apart of me did not want to see how much further he would go because he had never hit me before but at this point I just didn't care. I took a hot shower with determination in my head. I slipped on some jeans and a pull over top and headed out. I headed to Marcus's estate that sat right off the beach I didn't even know if he would be there or if he would be happy to see me. So much had happened in such a short time I didn't have time to really process everything. He made me feel things I never knew I was capable of feeling. I pulled up to the security gate I obviously did not think this through of course he would have security he is an important man worth millions maybe even billions. The man did not ask my name he just picked up the phone and shortly opened the gate . As I drove to the front door I admired the beautiful surroundings of the landscaping and layout it was breathe taking. When I pulled up to the front door Marcus was waiting at the door with no shirt on and some grey jogging pants he looked relaxed, when he saw me exit the car his eyes lit up and a huge smile covered his face. What a pleasant surprise he said, I immediately crashed my lips onto his, he did not question my actions he just picked me up and carried me inside without breaking our kiss. He carried me to his bedroom and laid me on the bed...I wanted this man so much I wanted to feel him inside of me again to relive the recent time we had spent together. He pulled away and looked me in my eyes, he bit his lip before saying you are so beautiful, redness filled my cheeks instantly as I thanked him for the compliment. He pulled my shirt over my head and unbuttoned my pants and pulled them down.

What was she doing to me. When I was with her nothing else existed but her, I wanted all of her... I pulled my jogging pants down which revealed my thick full cock I was not wearing any underwear, normally I slept in the nude, when security rang and said I had a visitor I could not contain my excitement, I wanted to feel her but first I wanted to devour her, I moved my mouth to her center and began to pleasure her I moved my tongue in and out of her the sounds that she made ensured that I was doing something right my tongue went deeper inside of her and she moved her hips to the motion. I knew she was close to climaxing but I wanted to feel her I placed my cock  inside of her all nine inches my cock fit inside of her perfectly like a glove. I intertwined our hands and looked her in her eyes I wanted her to know without words that I wanted her.

I could feel him inside of me every stroke made me feel as though I was going to explode. He held my hands and looked me in my eyes a tear fell from my eye I never felt this way. I don't think he noticed. He stroked in rhythm with me as I felt my body about to explode he too was about to explode I could feel it. We came together, but little did I know at that moment it wouldn't be the last time not that night anyway, he made my body climax multiple times until my body could not take anymore because it was exhausted. He left me on the bed and walked to the bathroom he ran hot water in his Jacuzzi tub once it was done he returned to where I was picked me up and carried me to the tub. I just looked at him never breaking eye contact but mouthing thank you. He didn't respond he placed my body in his lap and just held me for a moment. 

I wish it could be like this always but she is not mine and I need to stop this before it begins I am losing myself in her, if I'm telling the truth she has me all of me without even knowing it. She broke my thought when she said what are you thinking? I kissed her forehead and said in almost a whisper I wish I could keep you. 

I knew that this moment or moments like these would not last that they could not last. I stood first and dried myself off I dressed and walked into his bedroom. I was silent but deep in thought. I wished I could stay but soon Lamar would become aware of my absence and all hell would break loose. He walked behind me and wrapped his arms around me, he knew that this would be the last time that they would really be together like this. I turned around to face him and said in a low voice thank you and wrapped my arms around him and thought why do I make things more difficult than they should be. Lay with me he asked and I happily complied without hesitation. I stayed wrapped in his arms until he fell asleep I slipped out quietly without waking him. I was not ready to go home so instead I drove to the beach, the water always helped me think. I thought back to times when my father would bring me to the beach more specifically the final time before his death. "Crista he said I know you don't understand why I'm doing this but it is for your own good". I was so angry with him, he had just told me he had arranged my marriage to Lamar and said though I may not love him now in time love would grow... if only he knew how wrong he was. My father said Lamar would ensure that I was taken care of when he was gone my daughter will not be alone. Lamar had no intention of ever loving me not the way I needed to be loved to him I provided connections that he needed to rise in his position to go further in politics to ensure a chance of actually winning the election. The only time Lamar every showed affection was on our wedding night but that was short lived he let me know the very next morning the only reason we slept together was because the marriage needed to be consummated but there was and would never be any love between us. I accepted that what other choice did I have but to make it worse he forbid me to be with anyone else because in the public eye I was still his wife and daughter of a prestigious judge. He had no tolerance for mistakes or anyone thinking our marriage was not perfect. He had never put his hands on me until now. Times like this I missed Charles my brother, my father banished him years ago. Apart of me hated him for abandoning me but another part understood why he left. Who would want to be around my father who always judged him and never showed him one ounce of love. Nothing he ever did was good enough but he never looked back.

Where is she Lamar thought. I knocked on her door to apologize for striking her but her bed was empty. I sent someone to look for her and seems like he has just returned. Where is she I asked trying to hide my anger but becoming enraged by the second. I didn't understand why suddenly she wanted to act out this had never been in her character and I did not need this now since I decided to run for a government seat. She is at the beach, the man states.....the beach I said, alone? Yes sir the man said. What the hell is she doing there I thought? There has never been more than an arrangement between us at one point it seemed she wanted more but the quickly changed when I told her there would never be love between us. The years have not changed she has always been a means to an end for me to get what I wanted. There was only one women who held my heart but she broke it. My thought was interrupted when she walked in the door she seemed to have been crying there were dry tears on her face. She didn't notice me when she walked in. Where have you been, I asked looking at her with fury in his eyes. I needed some air, look Lamar its been a long day and I can really do without the lecture right now. I looked at her and something was different I couldn't put my finger on it but it was something. She began to walk past me and I grabbed her arm I looked her in her face for a moment her eyes met mine. She was beautiful there was no denying that her eyes were full of fire. I never looked at my wife this way before but for the first time ever I saw something attractive about her disposition. With that thought in mind I let her arm go she stood there for a moment without moving . I'm sorry, I paused about earlier. I searched his eyes for sincerity and surprisingly found it. Thank you for saying that. I mean it Crista I know our arrangement is not ideal you expected more. Maybe we could talk about it more after the meeting with Marcus tomorrow. Words I had always wanted to hear from my husband but I felt like they had come a little to late . She looked at me with her hazel eyes. And for the first time in forever I wanted her desired her. I could feel his desire and quickly said yes we can talk tomorrow good night Lamar. She left the room leaving me in an unknown territory.