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{Is this change?}

The lights flicker

Quietly I sat there and waited, I'm not sure what for. Did I actually think someone was just gonna show up and explain to me how it was all an elaborate joke?

I stayed like that for just a few moments more.

(What am I even doing? This is so stupid.)

I think giving up was the option at the time. I rolled towards the door, feeling  ridiculous for acting out. I'm not sure what was happening with me but I was starting to believe I was going insane.

What if I did imagine it all? Then I would have just made a big fool of myself in the streets. Ugh what the hell is wrong with me?

I reach the door and push it open, wheeling myself out. The front wheels had a bit of trouble getting over the metal bar on the ground. Finally, they made it over, so I assume the back wheels should make it over smoothly, at least that's what I thought. When suddenly I'm pulled back into the closet and the door is shut in front of me.

My heart begins to pound and my body starts to shake as I look around me. The lights are still on but no one else is in the room. I put my hands on the wheels and push them forward just a little. And like before I'm dragged backwards.

(Stop this!)

That's when I hear her.

"You never answered my question."

I look around me desperately trying to put a face to my fears and I become increasingly anxious when I can't find one.

(What! What question??!)

The voice sighs

"I asked you. Do. You. Want. To. Change?"

Now I was becoming aggravated.

(I don't fucking get it. You're gonna have to elaborate for me. You cant just come out of nowhere, scare the shit out of me, then ask me if "I want to change", that doesn't make any since!)

"Oh please excuse me, I must apologize for startling you. But I am only trying to give you an opportunity."

(And opportunity for what?)

"To be free of your burden."

(Jesus Christ stop with all the riddles, get to the point)

"I'm talking about being normal Victor. I'm talking about finally being able to hear without having to watch peoples hands fly in front of your face. I'm talking about seeing the world In color like we all do. And...the chance to walk again."

I was quiet for a moment, not really believing what I was hearing, If I was hearing at all.

(Before I answer your question, answer mine. How am I able to even hear you? I'm deaf, I know I'm deaf. I've been this way my whole life. So why the hell can I hear you now??)

"Its simply because you're allowing yourself to hear me."

(Nope, I can tell you now that you're wrong. I've been trying to hear things since I was six, It doesn't fucking work that way, I would know.)

"Oh but it does and that's what's amazing about it. The human brain has so much potentia,  if only we could access all of it. Right now I'm allowing my sound waves to travel to your brain so that you can hear me."

(That doesn't even make any sense. How can you hear me?)

"Because you're opening your mind to the possibility.  It started when you wondered if others could hear your thoughts. The possibility of that opened your mind and allowed me to slip in for only a short moment. Afterwards, you wanting to understand what was happening caused brain cells to awaken and allow me more access. The more you thought of it, the easier it was for me to get in because you have what we call, an allowed-mind. Your thoughts travel through my sound waves to my ears and through that wave I'm able to send messages right back to the receiver. So technically you called out to me; It sounds completely crazy, I know but its the truth."

(Okay, so what happens if I say no I don't want to change and I shut you out?)

"Then I'll leave you alone. I'll never bother you again unless you wish for me to. You will never hear my voice and you can continue your life as it is. Though technically you cant shut me out, as soon as someone finds an opening, there is no shutting it off. But a good thing for you is only one person can enter an allowed's mind."

(...okay)

"So what will It be?"

Everything at that moment was quiet, I don't think I really need time to think things over. I know what I want and I know what makes me happy, but I also know that if things changed so suddenly my parents would be shocked and there isn't much of a way to explain that to someone. As stupid as it sounds, I cant take this offer. Besides if I become better, there will be no need for me to stay with my parents anymore. And I don't wanna leave my mom here alone, not yet.

(No....I don't want to change. So leave me alone.)

"...very well"

And just like that she was gone. No poof of magic, no big explosion, she was just gone and there was no longer any sound. I tentatively moved my hands to the wheels pushing them gently.  When nothing happened I continued towards the door, flinging it open and quickly rolling out of the closet.

I looked back over my shoulder at the empty room that may have once held an opportunity. What would have happened if I had said yes...?

 For a few moments longer, I sat there looking into the closet. Finally, I lean back and slap the door close. (Guess I'll never find out now)