Can you love a ghost? // H.S✔️

22. Im not crazy

"Take it easy, do you need a hand? Hang on, I'll help" my mum rushes to grab my arm to help me out the car.

"Mum stop! Please I'm fine. I didn't loose my legs I can walk fine" I flap my hand to gesture her to leave me to it.

I pull myself round using the door handle and hold onto the top and haul myself out. I wince in pain and I stand up too quickly and my stomach begins to ache again.

"See Holly you're not superwoman, you should of taken my offer of help" she comes to the side of me and wraps her arm around my waist. I can't find the strength to argue with her so I allow her to help me to the front door.

"Welcome home kid" my dad rushes past us to unlock and open the door for us. He carries some bags behind us and closes the door. I stand with my mum and look around it's been three and half weeks since red bitch has stabbed me. Three and half weeks since I've seen Harry and it's killing me to see him again. To speak to him about that night, I was hoping he'd come and visit me in hospital but he never showed up.

"I think I just want to lay down on my bed mum" I look at her. I just want to relax and be on my own. I've had nurses, doctors and police rushing around me for nearly a month and that doesn't include my mum who's been at my bed side every day. I just need my own company for a while.

"Ok sweetheart, do you need a hand getting up the stairs?" She carefully asks me incase I kick off.

"No I'll be fine" I roll my eyes behind her back "thank you though" I turn around and smile. I see my dad give me a quick stare as he must of seen me rolling my eyes but I ignore him and start the slow walk to my bedroom.

The pain is just an ache now but I'm on strong pain killers which is making it bearable.

After what feels like an hour of walking up the stairs I finally get to my room, my door is open and I see Pebbles curled up on my bed. I make her jump with my clumsiness and she jumps up and runs over to greet me wrapping her body around my legs.

"Hey pebs have you missed me?" I slowly lean down and give her a quick Stroke before walking over to my bed.

I sit down and swing my legs over and lay back, I reach down and pull my top up to inspect my two scars. I don't need bandages now and I've had my stitches removed yesterday, I just have two three inch scars on either side of my stomach. I rest my hand on them both and sigh and think to myself what the fuck have I gotten myself into?

"Hey" I jump to the sound of Harry's voice and then gasp in pain at shooting up too quickly.

He rushes over to me and helps me slowly lay back down "shit! Are you ok? I didn't mean to make you jump" he panics.

"Why?" I lay down and look up at him.

"Why? What do you mean?" He looks confused. I study his face he looks awful. He looks like someone who hasn't slept in weeks, his hair is messier than usual.

"Why did you send me back? I know that's what you done." I look down at his cold hand on top of mine on my stomach and I instantly miss the warmth I felt that night from him.

"Because princess I couldn't let you just leave everyone behind. You don't know how hard that was for me to do. Do you know how much I wanted you with me? It's the one thing I've been wanting since I met you. You're time isn't up here, you've got so much more to give and I don't want you wasting away like I did" he sits down next to me and I can see the pain in his eyes.

"That wasn't your decision to make, do you know how much I hate my life right now? We could of had everything together. I felt you" I whisper. I reach up and rest my hand on his neck "I felt you" I repeat.