it hurts me to even breathe,
i can't take a breath without having a sudden feeling of panic.
the light I see at the end of the tunnel is starting to dim,
im running and im desperately trying to reach the light,
but it's getting further and further away ,
it's dimming.
turning out.
and as the light fades out to black,
i find myself sitting,
not running anymore but sitting in the dark abyss.
my head starts to spin and I feel like I'm drowning,
the air escapes my lungs and i take huge gulping breaths, inhaling the water.
and that's where I stay,
repeating it over and over,
having no breath left and having to take gulping breaths of water,
the constant feeling of suffocation
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i don't want this anymore
