it's becoming more apparent that im unloved,
and that I have no place in the universe.
there are so many people that haven't got a much of a life and they deserve what I do not cherish,
a good life.
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the problem is me.
i am the problem.
5 years ago I was a bright person who was always smiling and never dull,
oh how that changed.
slowly but surely I closed up and locked the door.
I opened up once and that got me deeper into sadness than I've ever been before.
never again will I open up.
