Should I choose Him?

Ch.5: An Axell In My Mistakes

I am now here from Band Camp 2017 a few months into the future. I was finally an 8th grader,I was so excited. I made memories and we had lots of fun and finally Axell was over Molly but still seemed to be a mess of a guy now. He talks to all these girls but his main hoe during camp was Lydia. I felt so left out because it felt like my messages with him didn't matter because Lydia interested him more than I did. Lydia was so pretty but fake and she wanted Axell's attention all the time to make me jealous. Lydis was Farrah's bestfriend so it seemed odd knowing Axell used to like Fareah and he's now flirting with Lydia. I was frustrated because I knew Axell would message me and tease me. It was true though after band camp Axell and Lydia drifted apart because she didn't need him if he was gonna keep coming back to me and he did! We talked all the time on our phones and at the games. It was romantic and it felt like 7th grade all over again minus me crying over a crush and I felt more mature this time. It was getting worse though because we'd talk after the games too and he started being strange and wanted to take me into the dark halls and one day I accepted and thought we'd have fun. This fun was actually my first real kiss. Yes, Axell Treys was my real first kiss!! I'm disgusted too but so ecstatic. I hated him forever but it didn't matter because after the kiss it felt like a whole new world. I was wrong though as after the kiss Axell ghosted me out of embarrassment I guess. I thought I was sad and lonely until I really got on my Instagram more and realized so many people there went to my school and I made a new friend to talk about, Hazel, she was in band with me and played Trombone too but we didn't always really talked because she had Cheryl and Bunny till I started DMing her. She was the queen of memes and had the best sense of humor ever, she had chestnut brown hair and the most shimmering 'hazel' eyes ever. She was an amazing friend to have now.  Drake, Willow, and Hazel seemed to be the truest of friends to me right now. These amazingly loyal and honest friends that I hope to keep forever. They made me so happy. I was so happy to have at least a few friends at school that was trustworthy. They accepted me for me! I was so happy!