Should I choose Him?

Ch.9: I Am the Only Mistake Here

My alarm rang and I woke up and started getting dressed and as I went to brush my teeth I realized today was the day... I had to choose between my actual bestfriend and my newest friend! I went to school and after the day was over I knew the rehearsal would suck terribly. I sat down next to Willow and Drake. I looked to my right to see Hazel and Jenna giggling together. This act made me turn the tables as Jenna wasn't worth my time. She was very talented and showed me some compassion but Willow has been there for me a lot and she proved her loyalty. When I voted I chose Willow for the part of Janis as she is my bestie and Jenna didn't seem too interested in my friendship anymore. I was so frustrated because Hazel made it so difficult to make friends at RedRidge sometimes! I felt so horrible and just ran to the restroom and crawled into a stall to think for a bit. I tried to leave when I heard the door open and a voice call my name. It was Gayle. I hated her! Gayle was a Junior who was so bossy and rude. I didn't answer Gayle yet she walked right to my stall door and knocked. I whimpered loudly and Gayle shouted at me to get out because I wasted all the practice time so everyone could look for me. I walked out and Gayle dragged me into the auditorium. Mrs. Sylie walked up to me and grabbed my shoulders to tell me that I would be out of the play if I kept playing pity games with my feelings. The rehearsal neared its end and Mr. Salem was about to announce our new Janis. I sat at the edge of my chair, next to Willow. Mr. Salem opened his mouth to announce that Jenna was our new Janis?! I was shocked and confuzzled. I looked at Willow who was holding back a river of tears. She told me she was fine and she assumed I voted Jenna. I told her that she was my bestfriend and she called me a liar. I was so offended and thought I deserved better! At this point practice ended and I left feeling like a failure. I told my Mom all about the situation but her only advice was to apologize and prove I voted Willow. I laid in my bed weeping and trying to find a way to prove myself to Willow. I am the only mistake here, I tried to replace my bestfriend with someone who used to be my enemy.

I was proud of Jenna but I can't help but feel like I'm the only mistake in this play cast! I needed to show Willow that I voted her and that SHE was my bestie. I thought I could finally get over Jenna and her games. I woke up and had a normal school day but after school I walked up to Mr. Salem and asked him if I could have the card I voted on. I showed my valid signature I provided on my ballot and I wanted Willow to see it! I troughted towards Willow when I saw her with a new girl that I only knew from choir class. When I got close Willow introduced me to the girl, Venus. Venus was a very short and petite girl with light brown hair down to her upper arms and she had very pale skin. I said hey to Venus and she told me she was Willow's cousin and she'd be joining the play as an extra to replace Bunny. This was so exciting, a new friend that'll help me get over the Jenna thing. That's when I realized Venus and Jenna were besties I was shocked at the sight of them giggling and hugging each other but it was familiar, I saw it in the choir room all the time. I thought I had a scapegoat away from betrayal but I guess not now. Venus and Jenna were both in 7th grade so it made sense that they were friends. Jenna was a new student though so I expected her to have minimum of at least 4 friends like I first did but I guess she was pretty popular, that's not a surprise though because she was an amazingly talented. I stood up and waltzed over to Venus, Jenna, and Willow just to see what they were dicussing but a distant voice stopped me. It was my father and he had bad news. My father told me that I'd be leaving practice early for an orthodontist appointment soon. This sucked because I'd miss out on all the fun Drake, Willow, Venus, and I would've had roaming the school while Hazel and Jenna rambled to each other. After half an hour of some more of rehearsal. I left for my appointment and I wouldn't come back till tomorrow so I said bye to everyone except Jenna and Hazel because I was fed up. The next day I woke up quite sweaty and scared! I couldn't shake the feeling that I had a text. I looked at my phone and the time read, '3:32 AM' and I received a message at '2:57 AM' from Jenna. The text was about how she felt like she liked me and Hazel! I was shocked. I couldn't respond but it already said I read it so I told her, "Don't pick me, I'm sick of your attitude" and I fell back asleep. At '5:30 AM' I woke up and got ready per usual but right before I left I checked my phone and I had 21 messages from Jenna! I couldn't hold myself together because she made me furious with her news and now she's texting me very violently. I read all of them and she was mad that I wasn't even giving her any attention or a decent response. She wanted to talk at school. I arrived at school and as I unpacked Jenna appeared with her radiant smile. I waved and went back to my unpacking. She told me hey and started asking me questions about Hazel since I told her to not choose me. I answered all of them vaguely and started my walk to the restroom because I knew I needed some type of excuse away from her because I couldn't remind her that Hazel and I were straight. I was just so flustered. Jenna followed me all the way to the restroom and when I reached the door I finally flipped on her! I told her to just leave and that she was stupid for thinking that anyone like her would be accepted for trying to date a straight girl! She left wailing and I went into a stall and cried. I was so mad that my friends were intertwining and leaving me behind. This was all my own fault though, I'm such a monster.