Her Random Thoughts on Written || MGWA

[Entry 018]

Written at July 5, 2018 - 4:04 AM

¬¬¬

4 months ago, I ended up about us,
4 weeks has passed friends wants me to come back,
4 days since I left home,
4 hours already after the rain,

4 minutes, I still don't know if I'm still angry or hungry
In every 4 second pass guilt still there, remembered I have hurt someone I shouldn't, it could be my mom or you..
The feeling I should still say "sorry" I'm unworthy of your worry.

Four times, in every people I've known in my life, maybe you might forgive me, forget me, remove that frown, give back your crown.
But maybe, I only still thinking this, you all already fine. And maybe still, I'm not.

Maybe, the thought just lingers me when I'm alone.
4'o clock in the morning, still wide awake, not because I can not sleep, it is just I still have to wait to finish my assigned call of duty,
Maybe it's nonsense hurt I felt, maybe I'm just missing back then, when I can freely talk anything with everyone, now I don't have any of it.

Maybe you can call it as busy, but my priority now is my responsibilities, part of it is loving myself.
I cannot play a role you used to, if I still continue, sorry again, but you could be a distraction and so am I.

So my favorite number 4 sometimes brings me luck, or defines me "I'm suck."
Thank you again pain, you just a reminder I should improve myself so forth to push more.

¬¬¬

So forth by MGWA.