The Bad Boy Cares? | Completed √

Chapter 51

Previously
They jump up and hold each other's hands. Oh, please let Connor be fine as well. He has to be fine. Please.

"As you must have known, your son had cancer and he would've had 7 months to live due to the fact that the cancer was spreading and we couldn't help him anymore. Unfortunately, your son endured so much stress these past few weeks, that his heart couldn't take it. We have tried to operate him and put him in an artificial coma, but we were too late. I'm really sorry for the words I'm about to say, but your son, Connor Simmons didn't make it. You can go see him now"

Now
The world around me starts to spin and I fall to the ground. Connor's mother breaks down in her husband's arms and they slowly walk towards his room. Tyler and Daniel break down, Jake starts shouting and kicks some chairs. Jade's breaking down too, but she still tries to calm Jake down.

Mason pulls me off the ground and wants to pull me into a hug, but a sickening feeling sets in my stomach and within moments I find myself dry heaving above the toilet.

"Shh, it's okay Lex, it's okay. Everything's going to be fine"

Mason followed me and now he rubs soothing circles on my back, while holding my hair up. I didn't miss the tears rolling down his cheeks. One of his best friends died from cancer and he didn't even know that he was sick.

"I don't know if I can handle this" I sob and hug him tightly against me

He doesn't say a word, but just returns the hug. I felt so relieved when the doctor told us Jayden was going to be fine. But then he told us that Connor didn't make it and my world came crashing down again.

I cry in Mason's arms until I have calmed down a bit.

"I wanna see Jayden" I mumble, my throat sore from my sobs

Mason takes my hand and together we walk towards Jayden's room. My mind is a blur and before I know it, we have entered Jay's room.

"Hey Jay. I don't know if you can hear me, but I like to believe that you can. The doctors said that you're going to be fine. My world crashed when those two shots were heard. I thought you were going to die. Those past few hours have been killing us. But luckily, you're going to be fine. I don't know what I would do if you would've died, I honestly think I couldn't have handled it. I love you Jay" I whisper

A doctor walks in and gives us a tight smile.

"You are friends with Connor Simmons right?"

"Yes, why?" Mason says, jumping out of his chair

"If you want to say your last goodbye's, this is your chance to do so" he says, his voice getting thick

"Did you know him?" I ask, my curiosity getting the best of me

"Yes I did. I have been treating him for the past year. He was a fighter. A really strong boy, he never gave up on fighting the cancer. A great, great boy he was" the doctor says and I can hear the thickness in his voice

Tears roll down my cheeks, "thank you doctor, we'll go see him now" Mason says and I give Jayden a last kiss on his cheek

"We'll be back, Jay"

Every step towards Connor's room feels like a marathon. We stop in front of his door and I take a few deep breaths.

Walking in I burst out in sobs again. There he lays, lifeless and pale with closed eyes. With trembling hands, I grab his hand in mine, which feels cold.

"I'm sorry Connor, I'm so so sorry" I mumble and tears role down my cheeks

Jade went to Jayden's room and Connor's parents are calling the family to tell them the news.

"Lex, stop blaming yourself," Jake says and grabs my face in between his two hands, making me look at him, "it's not your fault"

"He didn't deserve to die, he was one of the best people I have met and now, now he's d-dead and it's m-my fauly" I sob and Jake pulls me in a hug

I continue to sob in his chest as he pulls me tighter against him. Mason took place on the chair next to Connor's bed and is staring at Connor with tears in his eyes.

It is my fault. I know it is. If I was able to fix my problems with Caleb, then Connor wouldn't have felt the need to protect me from him and he wouldn't have endured so much stress. Jayden wouldn't have been shot and Connor would still be here with us.

The sight of my friends this hurt and Connor makes me break even more and the energy slowly starts to leave my body as I hug Jake tighter to me.

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I pull the black dress of me and kick my black heels off. I look in the mirror as I put my pajama on. My hair is messy and my make-up is everywhere, because of my non-stop crying, but I honestly couldn't care less right now.

I look straight into my eyes in the mirror and they seem dull, like the life has been sucked straight out of them.

I scream and before I can stop myself I have made the mirror crash down on the floor and I fall next to it, sobs racking through my body.

"Lex? Are you okay? Hey, what happened?" Mason says as he sits down beside me –still in his suit–, while carefully avoiding the pieces of glass that are covering the floor.

I keep quiet as I wipe my tears away. I don't want him to see me this broken, he is having a hard time dealing with Connor's sudden death himself and I don't want to put any more on him.

Mason tries to pull me into a hug, but I shrug him off him and walk to my bed.

"I just want to sleep" I mumble quietly as my back faces him

"Lex-"

"Mason, please, I just need to be alone for a little while"

I feel him move towards me, but before he can even get close, I have turned around with a distant expression on my face.

He gently grabs my chin and tries to make me look at him, but I quickly turn my face and climb into my bed, facing away from him in the process.

"Good night"

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I toss and turn, but nothing works to get me to fall asleep. I sit up straight in my bed and grab the picture of Connor and I that I have standing on my nightstand.

Fresh tears roll down my cheeks as I am reminded of the moment. It's a picture of us in Disneyland when he dumped his ice cream on my head and I looked at him with a shocked expression, my mouth wide open, just like my eyes and my hands were in the air. He laughs with one of his hands on his chest and the other pointing to me as he tilts his head slightly backwards. His smile is real; you can see it in his eyes. He was happy.

And the thought of him happy made me smile through my tears. I put the picture back and lay back down with a smile on my face. With the tiredness taking over me I finally fall back asleep.

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