Feelings || A Changlix Fanfic

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Still hand in hand, Felix and I get into the metro. My hand is sweating but he doesn't seem to mind because he hasn't let go for about an hour. But I'm not complaining, I actually like it. It's been a while since I've had this much psychical contact with someone. The metro is a bit crowded but again, I'm not complaining at all, I can just get closer to Felix. Why I like being close to him I don't know, I just do. The metro abruptly stops and we all lose our balance and Felix falls onto me but I catch him. Boom, boom, boom. My heart is thudding and it makes me turn all red. I look at his face and he's beaming. He always seems so happy. In a rough world, its hard to keep an optimistic mind set, but he does it. It's honorable. A bunch of people get off at the train station, and Felix and I get to sit down next to each other. I just look straight in front of me but I sneak glances at him when I think he's not looking. He catches me doing it and he giggles. I nervously laugh too but I'm really embarrassed. We just stare at each other for a second. The moment seems to go on forever. For the 100th time, snap out of this Changbin! Don't be so vulnerable! I snap at myself but it does nothing. Our eyes are locked and I won't be the one to break it. I don't want to. The butterflies in my stomach just multiply by the second. I finally drop my gaze, my heart is beating too fast for my liking. "Jongno" the robotic woman's voice announces. "Isn't this your stop?" Asks Felix. "It is, but I'm going to take you all the way," I say gently. "Thanks." He says. I don't really like the thought of Felix in the dark city filled with bad people that could hurt him. It dawns on me that I never got worried about Chan whenever he would take the metro this late with me. Maybe because he's older or something? I can feel Felix's eyes burning a whole in my cheek. I hope he doesn't notice my face painting itself shades of pink.
Why do I keep blushing when he's around? Where are these butterflies coming from? Why don't I get like this with others? Why Felix? Is it because he's special like everyone else keeps saying? Is Hyunjin right about me being ga- I shut that thought out. I won't accept it. I feel a weight on my right shoulder. I look at it, and Felix has fallen asleep. On me. He's so cute and precious. I wrap my arm around him, and I am engulfed by his warmth.
There I go again. Getting choked up over him. Why does my heart skip a beat when I see him. When I see his beautiful blonde hair, his smile, his shining eyes, his perfect body, the world seems to freeze for a moment. Why? Is it just me that gets like this?
I give in. I come to the conclusion that I like this cosy feeling. I love it even. I love Felix. It's been years since I've felt like this. Last time was in primary school. With Hyunjin... I HATE to admit that he was right. Everyone seems to be falling for Felix and I am no exception. I let my head lie against his. This need to protect him, it's love. This need to be with him, it's love. This need for his cute mistakes in korean as weird as it may seem, is love. This need for Lee Felix, is love.
"Sejongno" says the metro voice. I gently wake him up. His eyes flutter open and I smile at him. "It's time to go 'Lix" I whisper. We get up, my heart pounding with each step I take. We arrive in front of his house and it time to say goodbye. "Thanks for today Binnie. I had great fun," he says and be leans up and he whispers to me, "please don't tell anyone the truth about why I came here,"
"Promise," I pinkie promise. Literally, we do the thing where our pinkie fingers hug each other. "Thanks for telling me by the way. It's touching that you trust me," I add. "See you tomorrow at school! Thanks again for lending me your folder" he says handing it back to me. "Anytime kiddo," I say ruffling his hair, even though he isn't that much younger than me. He still seems like a baby to me though. He runs into the house closing the door behind him. I stand on the front yard star struck.
On the trip back, the pain of being alone and cold after all this warmth hits me. I cry. I sob. Never I thought that something other than music could cure my anxious thought and then cause me to cry buckets of water. I didn't think I could feel something so strong. I guess it's true that we learn new things everyday...

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JENSKKSKWKWLW MY BOYS ARE ADORABLE AHHHHHHHH! THIS IS IT, BINNIE LIKES LIX. LIX LIKES BINNIE. LOOK OUT FOR SOME MORE CARING SOFT CHAPTERS. LEMME GO CRY SOME MORE AT HOW I WISH THIS WAS REALITY:,) but for real, don't we all love a gay in denial? I know I sure do. Also, if any of you ship Markhyuck, make yourselves known! My next fanfic will be with them and I'm open to ideas as long as they're very UwU.
Cya softies ^_^