note: u might find this chap a bit disturbing :))
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[ raeyun ]
i squinted my eyes from the brightness of the fluorescent lights. it had a mere imitation of the sun, it made me sigh.
it was like everything in this poor cruel world: fake and artificial.
here i am again, in this overly familiar setting. the vexatious beeping of the heart monitor piercing through my ears. the smell of alcohol, dust, and air conditioner was present.
it is killing me.
funny how i am still alive,
after all the attempts i've made to end myself.
i had no any other reasons to live, for i was a victim of rape. some people get raped just for once, yet that one experience could ruin their lives forever, making their life a living nightmare.
mine happened every single day. every time that bastard was horny,
and that bastard was my father.
it all began when he started taking drugs, then he influenced my mother too. how i hated my mom for being a fool.
when i was in the ripe age of twelve, they would force me to strip and take explicit photos of me. selling them in the internet for how much they wanted, it continued until i was fourteen.
there wasn't a time where i didn't get any bruises. i had fresh bruises everyday. red marks on the neck, violet marks on the thighs.
until one day i saw a blaring color on their chests. it was screaming red. at first, i thought it was just a side effect from my trauma, but it wasn't.
the next day, they were brutally murdered.
as inhumanely as it sounds, their death was more like a blessing, rather than a curse. also, i inherited all the money they had from their dirty work.
how fool i was to think that the death of my parents would put an end to the wrecked life i have.
i stand corrected. the photos leaked and i became a victim of bullying and sexual harassment.
i cut all connections from people around me. i grew up friendless, the loneliness piercing me every single day...
until i found bts. unfortunately, months later, i was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. the blaring blue in me faded into yellow green, until it completely turned into sunset yellow.
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OH MY SO MANY GRAMMAR MISTAKES IMMA EDIT THIS SOON (⌒-⌒; )
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