BUCKY BARNES ♡ IMAGINES

late night

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sleepiness nights seem to be happening more recently.

my body rolls around in the uncomfortable hotel complemented bed with much attempt to get comfortable but failing miserably.

clouded thoughts fill my brain making it even harder for me to even try to fall back into my earlier slumber.

i lean up and wipe my face a couple times as if i was wiping away the tiredness. with my eyes still heavy and my body half asleep i toss the covers off of me and place my feet on the floor.

a shiver runs through my body at the cold temperature of the floor.

i lift myself up off the hard bed and slip on some slippers to warm my feet, along with a sweater.

the wooden door to my room squeaks as i open it to exit the hotel to get some fresh air.

i close it as quietly as i can to make sure not to wake anyone else located on the same floor as me. i glance at a clock on the wall as i walk down the corridor.

2:49

late, as usual. sleep isn't really in my favor these days... my brain always decides that it should go into full operative mode when i try to sleep.

the cool air hits my face as i walk outside of the hotel that me and the other avengers were located at for a mission.

the sounds of waves crashing against one another fills my ears as the weight of my body makes my feet sink into the sand of the beach.

i wrap my sweater tightly around my body, not expecting the temperature to be this chilly.

lowering my body, i sit down against the sand and nestle myself into comfort.

"what are you doing out here?"

my nerves jolt in fear at the sudden voice appearing from behind me. i turn around and look up at the tired soul who spoke.

"bucky, you scared the hell out of me." i hold my hand over my heart with hopes to slow the rate of its beating.

"im sorry. i just heard you leaving your room so i came to see if you're alright." he tells me.

his body is wearing black sweatpants along with a hoodie as a blanket drapes around his shoulders, dragging in the sand.

"im fine... just can't sleep, as usual."

"mind if i join you?" he points to the sand next to me, waiting for my approval.

"go ahead, i'd appreciate the company." 

he takes a seat beside of me, the blanket pooling all around him.

once he gets settled i turn back towards the view of the ocean. the clouds are hovering around the moon, blocking its glowing light. thunder rolls in the distance as streaks of lightning are seen across the night sky.

"the views beautiful isn't it?" i ask bucky barely above a whisper.

"yes it is..."

i look over at him, his blue eyes already impaling me. i chuckle and look down at my lap for a moment before facing foward again.

"if i didn't know any better i would think you're flirting with me, mr. barnes."

"maybe i am."

a smile forms on his face as i still see him looking at me out of my peripheral vision. soon i find myself smiling at his dorkiness.

we both stare off into the distance, admiring the beauty that mother nature has to offer. the view was amazing but the temperatures are cold, i can feel myself shivering.

"here." bucky lifts up his arm and wraps it around me, pulling me closer to his warm body and wrapping me in his blanket.

"thank you."

"you're welcome."

we sit in silence for a few moments before bucky speaks again but this time with curiosity.

"so you can't sleep, huh?"

"no... my mind begins to race at night when im trying to sleep."

"if you don't mind me asking, what goes through your mind?"

"... past mistakes... regret... quilt... i've done so many things that im not proud of and it haunts me every night... well... everyday actually." i tell him while fidgiting with my finger nails.

"i guess that makes two of us... i know exactly how you feel."

feeling more comfortable, i lean my head on his shoulder.

"are you happy?" he asks.

"i like to believe i am... or at least believe im happier than i was. i guess it's true what they say... you never really know how broken you are until every time you laugh you want to cry. i found myself in that situation on multiple occasions..."

"what about earlier?"

"what about earlier....?" i question slightly confused on what he was referring to.

"earlier when you laughed... did you want to cry then?"

wow it's getting deep.

"no." i smile up at the blue eyed super soldier. "im slowly coming to peace with myself... it gets better everyday. and right now... right now im exactly where i want to be."

he smiles down at me.

"me too."

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