Does it even matter that I'm a superstar?
if in the deep dark night you're all that's on my heart
Why did we say we'd love til the end
now time is playing with me and I don't own the game
Baby, turn back time, come back home
Don't go listen to the unknown
I want to keep you on the go
I wanna love you like a love myself
Haunt me like the stars hurt the sun
Don't go listen to the unknown
I want to be good again, I wanna love you like I love myself
Rip my soul, this is a fever dream
When I wake up tonight
You'll stand right by my side
Please tell me who taught you how to live
So well without me, I wanna learn the trick
Rip my soul apart, come back home
Don't go listen to the unknown
I want to keep you on the go
I wanna love you like a love myself
Haunt me like the stars hurt the sun
Don't go listen to the unknown
I want to be good again, I wanna love you like I love myself
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7 years of my life were spent loving somebody more than I loved myself. Because I didn't know how to love myself. So I didn't know how to love this person. In ways, I can't be fully sure what it meant to love him: somebody just as wounded by family ties as I am. We suffered together, and we suffered because of each other, and we broke up.
This song addresses my feelings of loneliness. In the deep dark night all I think about is this imaginary person that doesn't exist. A lot of people have the misconception that I am writing about that ex, or about other people I loved after him, but I'm talking about love itself. I beg myself and my lover not to listen to the unknown and just come back home, which to me, it means I want to go back to my young self who wanted to love people openly and wasn't so jaded and wounded. But that kid didn't know how to love people well, so now I want to go back and love people like I love myself. With honesty. Fully. Beyond layers of trauma.
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GETTIN SIKKER - Lyrics & Meaning
PoetryIn this book, Beatriz "Mikka" Verneaux, known in the music world as STARLIGHT MIKKA, dissects the meaning of their writing in the mixtape GETTIN SIKKER, released in February 2018. The mixtape was composed and produced by DJ Broken Record and all lyr...
