WARNING:
this story might be really triggering for people with self harm issues and/or depressed/suicidal thoughts
i stare at the wall, tears pouring from my bloodshot eyes.
it's only been a day but it feels like it's been a lifetime. you were my everything, cal. MY EVERYTHING. and now you're gone.
why didn't you tell me you were hurting. i would've helped you. i know you could've gotten through this, if you had just told me.
ash told me it would be a good idea if we all wrote our feelings down. so here it is. this tear soaked "journal" that hopefully you can see so you know how much pain you're putting me through.
why did you do it?
i miss you. please come back, even though i know you can't.
i loved you. how could you leave me? how could you leave us?
all i can remember is your smiling face. you were never sad. how did you hide it so well? why didn't you say something.
i'll try and write in this most days, everyday if i can. i hope you can see this somewhere out there.
i love you and i miss you.
luke x
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without you // cake
Fanfictionafter calum's death the boys decide to write their feelings down. after being with calum for almost 5 years luke finds it hard to say goodbye to his one true love and struggles to accept that he is gone
